Need a puff

All of a sudden, I feel like taking a puff. Don't know why but feel terrible inside. This is horrible! :(

Crying is much more tiring than clubbing

Oh man..after yesterday, I realized working on the day after crying hard is so much more tiring than working on the day after clubbing!? Went clubbing last week on ladies night and went work the next day. But feel normal. Yesterday cried so hard in the warehouse when I went with driver early in the morning. Today wake up feel so shag till I took cab down to work. I guess the thing about human is that you know that doing something will just drain you off, yet you still can't control yourself. Perhaps I just forgot that crying so damn hard will just make me feel extremely exhausted the next day. But I think I just can't control myself. Sometimes really wonder why am I taking all those shits when I don't have to, for whom am I doing this for..

It's time to sleep for now anyway, because it's my convocation tomorrow! Feels kind of nervous..weird..omg so shag!! :(