Been sometimes since I last blogged. So damn busy with work till I'm starting to feel drained and exhausted. It's going to be three months in this company, but everyone feels that I've been there for years. Imagine working at least 15h most of the days and also working on sat for three months..no wonder will feel like years.
Hai dont know why, but when I sit in that particular lorry, I cried cos of work again. Tried so hard to act like not crying and looking outside the window, end up my driver still saw me crying. But luckily he tried to be cheerful and make me feel more relax. Oh man this should not be happening..it's as if I'm trying to overwork myself so as to forget certain things and move on. Perhaps a busy and exhausting life is what I need but not what I want.
Supposedly the more tough things a person went through, the stronger the heart will be? I thought so too..but somehow I felt that my heart can't really take it physically, even felt cramps in my heart during my sleep last night. Maybe one day I might just leave the world during my sleep. If that really happen, I hope that all my family and friends will see this post and know that I love you all very much. And I really appreciate all your time and company and also, the love you guys showered on me. *hugs*