Been so tensed up during work today cos of the accounts issue that I broke down in office just now. Luckily I'm alone in the office at that point of time. It's the second time I cried at work area man. It seems like it's getting worse. I seriously doubt I can handle my job. Gonna work 24 hours for this whole month unless I settled the accounts.

It may be just a normal stress day but an interesting thing to mention is that I had a ride on bike! Finally I had a chance to have a feel of sitting on a bike, thanks to my Indian colleague who stayed with me in the office because the work area is not safe at night. He offered to send me home using his bike when I wanted to call cab. Just nice he bought a new helmet too. It was quite interesting as I roughly have a feel of riding a bike finally. He said his fastest is 110 during the ride. Can't believe it because I don't feel fast at all. Perhaps it's due to his body size, makes me feel quite safe. Overall, it's interesting and perhaps I can try it one day!

Hectic life!

Ever since I started working, I haven't been able to sleep early. It's either I can't sleep well due to insomnia, or I worked till too late till I don't have time to sleep enough. But whatever the case, I just can't find enough time to do my work. It can be very stressful when I see the men coming to me, saying their salaries are incorrect or other problems, mostly due to the person who hand over to me. The time I spent in work now is much more than the working hours I spent in UOB. Moreover, it's so dark and dangerous at my workplace when it's night time, as mostly are foreign workers and lightings are pathetic in the industrial estate. Started work at 7.30am and have been working OT everyday, I still can't manage to get my things done. Even went back to work today on a Saturday! Sometimes I really feel that I'm inefficient even though there's all kind of ad-hoc things/ shits that crops up every now and then for the WHOLE day, stopping me from doing my everyday job tasks.

The more shits I been through, the more things I learnt. One thing I learnt today is that guys can be very good friends, nice to talk to. But they can never be someone who's dependable for life as partners. Being single feels really good, I feel so free and not restricted. Just like at Timbre just now when a guy is "dared" for taking picture with me, I don't need to worry if my boyfriend will get angry or unhappy. Or when I want to go out with friends, I don't need to follow/ check with boyfriend's schedule before I can agree to go out with friends. I don't need to worry about his feelings or afraid of getting hurt. Simply put, there's no one to tie me down. Sometimes seeing those guys who are attached or married still go out to play a fool, makes me feel that no guys can be trusted or depend on. Meeting guys like this seems to tell me that I don't need to be that serious in a relationship with a guy, because end of the day, it's the girl that will get hurt. Oh well, point is they can be good friends but not someone to depend on at the end of the day.