如果。。

如果真的过得很辛苦，你们会让我走吗？？

wound not recovered afterall

Its been almost 2 weeks since I last blogged. Been happy last week when I met up with my UOB friends (Huan & Angela) and my UniSIM buddies (Poh Ying, Jia Hui, Desmond, Hock Leong and Terence) for dinner, drinks and BBQ. Really enjoyed their companion for the whole week.

Now that I have to start revision for my Psychology paper. Just the thought of studying opens up my wound again...Until now I'm still afraid of waking up despite all the happy moments I had last week. It's already difficult to study alone, to be self-disciplined enough to plan my time to do revision. Now that the thought of revision even open up my wound, how am I going to survive this exam? 心中枷锁该如何解脱??! I've tried doing it myself but apparently it does not work sometimes, is there someone out there to help me? It's just so painful sometimes.. =(

真的好辛苦。。我的声音在笑，泪却在飙。。

走在风中 今天阳光 突然好温柔

天的温柔 地的温柔 像你抱著我
然后发现 你的改变 孤单的今后
如果冷 该怎么渡过？

天边风光 身边的我 都不在你眼中
你的眼中 藏著什么 我从来都不懂
没有关系 你的世界 就让你拥有
不打扰 是我的温柔

不知不觉 不情不愿 又到巷子口

我没有哭 也没有笑 因为这是梦
没有预兆 没有理由 你真的有说过
如果有 就让你自由

摩天轮停住 咖啡杯不跳舞
孩子练习著 让悲伤麻木
快乐也开始麻木

梦中城堡里面跳舞 醒了世界依然残酷

以为我爱著孤独 以为自己不会迷路
以为自己跟自己 再不用谁照顾
以为我爱著孤独 却又崩溃的无助
谁能让我拥抱著尽情的哭？

学习放弃无奈

Just heard this new version of "當我知道你們相愛" by Derrick Ho. The lyrics really pain me..but also telling me to let go of the helplessness..Firstly I need to learn to be contented to reduce the pain. Secondly, I need to learn to let go of the helplessness that's haunting me all the while. This is the journey to recovery.

放棄了　放棄了　放棄了無奈

還記得我們曾是彼此的　唯一

接受了我們情侶關係的　是妳

當我知道你們相愛

有了開始有了未來
在我心裡放不下的也該釋懷
收拾好把它掩埋

當我知道你們相愛
我的心底泛起許多無奈
這時候我該有個專屬幸福　
我會不停的等待
等待著未來

床底的箱子裡一疊疊的　

回憶再厚的思念釋放以後就　忘記

沒結果了　放棄　挽不了　逃避
體驗過了　無數　個複雜　愛情

某一晚在街燈　下巧遇
我問候　妳回應
發現已不再眷戀著妳

我　躺在我的沙發上

看著我們的照片一張接一張
I don’t know since when　那感覺不一樣
妳的美　現在已放在我心上
每分　每秒　每個角落
我會不停的探索
尋找完美的戀曲
Move on　Move on　Move on