totally amazed~~

sudd felt angry n irritated at e 1st lesson 2dae...cos of e pscm proj..dun wan 2 tok bout it...felt better after quant entertain mi at e lec hall 4 2nd lesson..muaha!! actuali nt reali entertain lah..juz felt better after "plaein" w jessica n quant~ haha! i'm reali happi tt i gt frens lyk them..its my fortune 2 haf them by my side cos i owaes feel better when they w mi..great 2 haf frens lyk them!

met yinru after sch 2 go hm 2gether..went 2 ps swenson's 2 eat ice cream cos i gt coupon..but nt much diff thou..haha! its a v.v.last min decision..hopped out e train sudd cos cannt resist e ice cream~ e staff at swenson's r reali frenly! lyk their services..aniwae we ate 2 ice creams n we were soooo full!!!!!~~ den here cum e amazed part...at least 2 mi lah ok! yinru was tellin mi 2 use my tongue 2 tie a knot w e cherry stalk..1st thing in my mind iz IMPOSSIBLE!!! i noe sum ppl can but i die die oso dun believe i can tie a knot usin my tongue!! arhaha! so i dun haf 2 try but yinru juz keep persuadin mi 2 try..after much persuasion frm her...i finali tried..n I DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOHOOOO~~~~ i was reali so xtremely shock ok!!!! cos i REALI dun believe i can even mk a circle w a straight stalk..haha!! aniwae i was reali xcited n shock tt i tie knot w my tongue~~ totally amazed!!! muz reali thanks yinru 4 encouragin n supportin mi..wahahah!! she sound so confident tt i can do it...omg~~~ I REALI DID IT?!!!!!!???!!! yeah!!!!!!!!!!!

headache..hai~

didnt blog 4 sum time le..1 wk i guess..dun wan 2 blog bout wat happen these few daes cos i cant rem...!! goin 2 b v.busy le...proj n tests r cumin in 2wks times...there's so mani proj need 2 b done...hai..juz done sum research on e PSCM grp proj...was havin headache at 1st when i searchin 4 e info..half wae nt pain animore...den nw finish findin e info liao headache again..sian..haf been searchin 4 more den 4h n onli cum up w so little info!! hai~~ tml stil haf 2 wk up earli 2 meet e rest of e grp members 2 do tiz PSCM proj..b4 meetin them stil haf 2 highlight e impt pts in e info i've found so they dun haf 2 read everyting frm e article n waste time..hopefully i can finish lookin thru e article n highlight all e impt pts b4 meetin them..cos i read v.slow..need alot time 2 read....haf been learnin n tryin 2 read faster..but nt much improvement i guess..hehe..tiz article gt 6pgs..maeb i'll need 1/2h or more 2 read n highlight..haha! hopefully i wun fall aslp durin tml's discussion...perhaps tml on e wae there den highlight e pts..thou i doubt i can finish readin lah..i'll stil try my best~ haha! juz hope tt i wun fall aslp while readin on train..if nt ppl steal my info oso dunno <===*siao char bo! hu wan steal ur info lah!!* wahhahah!! dun blame mi 4 tokkin 2 myself again...cos i'm tired!!! slpin sooooooonnnn!!!!!!!!!!~~~

irritated!

haven been checkin my sp emails since last yr bah..so went 2 clear e emails juz nw...was so irritated lor! oready v.reluctant 2 use e sp emails liao...cos its lyk so xtremely slow lor...arghh!! n its reali v.slow!!! i haven even finish clearin nw!!!!!!! yucks!!! i reali no comment bout e speed of web lah...i was so irritated til i juz delete emails without openin them...its so slow lor!!! hai!!!

tink i change myself abit since sch started...well...juz small matters bah...haf been slpin earli till my frens cant believe it..haha..told jessica tt i'm goin 2 slp le n she thot i crazy liao..ahha! she abit shock tt i actuali wan 2 slp earli bah..hmm..wan 2 haf enuff slp so tt i wun fall aslp in sch lyk wat i did in yr 1..i wan 2 AT LEAST keep myself awake in sch tiz yr..ppl might b surprise 2 hear tiz bah..keke! thou evelitime dunno wat e lecturer teachin or dun understd e module..tiz yr i'm gona keep myself awake!!!! hahaha! mi seldom slp in lectures nw..even when i slp..juz lyk 2dae's 1st lect(8am)..i'm listenin 2 wat e lecturer iz tokkin bout..i hear even more clearly~ haha! wendy kept wkin mi up but i juz ignored her..cos i'm reali listenin 2 e lecturer when my eyes closed..i even tried 2 write down notes..*mi nv write down notes w juz listenin 2 e lecturer b4*..tiz iz e 1st time sia~ tink i can change myself de!!~~ woohoo~~ yest wore abit different frm wat i usuali wear evelidae 2 sch..wore e blue sleeveless top elise gaf mi n e black pants i bought w wendy...wore e heels i bought on wed n my nails painted black...oso w a new hair cut where NONE NOTICE IT TILL I SAE!~~ haha!

aniwae..i seldom feel moody or watever le..maeb cos i've enuff slp?? haha!! haf been learnin 2 slp earli...learnin 2 do tutorial..learnin 2 keep myself awake in sch...learnin 2 listen attentively in sch..learnin 2 speak louder durin presentatn..learnin 2 b bolder..learnin 2 communicate w others nicely...learnin alot alot...................

hmm..

cant rem wat happen 4 e past few daes...onli noe yest nt feelin ok after readin ppl's blog...abit sad? heavy hearted? angry? sian? i dunno wat feelin...juz feel moody n dun wan tok after online yest...even went 2 e extent tt i sat in my rm after dinner 2 do PTH tut....??! "hui yun actuali doin tut?!! sure nt??!" tink tts most of my frens' reactn bah...tink my close frens n my jie will noe tt i wun ownself go do tut when i'm free..i'll either slp, watch tv or online..tut definitely nt in my dictionary! so it means sumting wrong when i'm sudd hardworkin...well...maeb cos i juz wan 2 mk myself busy n stp myself frm tinkin too much n recallin e past...no pt tinkin of e past rite?! arghh!!! onli will mk mi sad n miss e daes nia...hai! wats e use?! tink of e future ah yi! *in case ppl readin tiz dunno...i'm ah yi(4)...tiz iz onli called by my family n relatives..sum of my frens oso noe they call mi ah yi..* nw quant ruu oso called mi ah yi sumtimes..haha! so farni..cos i heard relatives callin mi ah yi since young..but nv heard frens callin mi ah yi..so e voice abit nt familiar...

went sch 2dae w e moodiness stil nt over yt..but felt better when i reached dover mrt cos i'm w my baba family..quant noticed tt i'm nt in gd mood immediately she saw mi..haha! moodiness over after walkin 2 sch w them~ end cls at 12 n went 2 centrept w mum n mei..cos i wan 2 buy e pair of heels i saw last wk..went 2 pizzahut eat n so full~ den they pei mi go kovan cut hair..glad tt i finaly did e things i wan 2 do long ago~ e moment we climbed up e stairs outside kovan mrt..my left slipper's spoiled..e strap dropped out! luckily i juz bought a pair of heels!!!~ hahaha!! changed 2 heels immediately n mum told mi 2 throw awae e slipper..sad~ aniwae went 2 trim hair w mum's accompany cos mei meetin her frens at kovan..my hair looks much shorter!!! awww~ my hair grows so slow!! sian~ aniwae finaly bought heels n trim my hair! felt great~ went hm n painted my nails black again..but onli painted 3rd, 4th n 5th fingers 4 both hands..cum online blog while waitin 4 them 2 dry b4 i continue paintin e rests..gaorui called after i finish typin e 1st paragraph..cos i need 2 return him e tape i borrowed frm him..so i passed him e tape at e main gate w my 6 fingernails painted black...haha! tink his frens n him didnt notice..whew~ but doesnt matter aniwae lah..haha! happi can liao~gona eat dinner n paint my nails le..hungry!!~~

sian 1/2..

wed went out w yanxi n elise 2 town in e afternn..cos i end at 12..so went walk ard..at nite meet elise's fren..den ate dinner 2gether...they decided 2 bring mi go chinablack c c...haha! cos elise sae i nv go clubbin b4..wan mi go c c..reached chinablack n e woman there sae haf 2 wear covered shoes or heels..so in e end we didnt go...decide 2 go zouk n waited e cab 4 q.sum time..while waitin i called my jie usin yanxi's hp cos my hp no batt le..she at wisma w her bf...so i decided 2 go find them instead of goin zouk..soli ppl..cant go w u all..cos late le..sumore dun wan smell as if i smoke..haha~ went 2 taka n waited my jie n her bf at e fountain outside crystal jade restaurant..soon i saw them n they pei mi go buy drink...was feelin moody n wanted 2 drink coffeebean..went there but closed..went 2 cineleisure 2 look 4 drinks..yoshinoya, long john n cafe cartel were closed...1 of e staff at cafe cartel even gif us attitude...i was so irritated tt i sui sui nian my jie n her bf loudly tt e guy iz so rude..hw can gif us attitude blah blah...i even gif him attitude b4 we left..disgustin fellow! dun sae le...finali went 2 BK n bought ice milo b4 tkin cab hm 2gether..

thur gt 4h break frm 11-3..so in b/t wendy n i went 2 imm haf lunch n shop~ we bought 2 pants..mi black n wendy's brown~ den we keep walkin in n out of e shop cos wendy cant decide on e spag..even e guy rem us..in e end she bought 1 black n 1 pink while i bought 1 black cos 3 for $20..shop ard 4 awhile n rushed back 2 sch 4 fma lec...wendy, thanks 4 lendin mi $ n pei-in mi tk shuttle bus~~ arhahha!

2dae actuali onli frm 8-12...but yest's uccd tut postponed to 2dae's 12-2...sian~ 6h without break! but luckily went 2 buy food eat durin changin of cls..if nt tink i'll juz starved 2 death! aniwae went 2 orchard w jessica n her bf, wendy n zhaowei after sch...walked ard n ate at mos burger...wendy left earli cos she workin at e evenin..sian 1/2..cant go w us 2 watch movie...so sad she cant go..haah! zhaowei lyk v.tired..tried tokkin 2 him but seems tt we cant tok more den 10 sentences every time? hai..i reali dunno wat 2 sae...he's so quiet..even quieter den mi..perhaps cos my frens ard n he paiseh? but stil can tok 2 mi rite? haha...even yiwen sae he v.quiet..aniwae..watched "mr n mrs smith"..its a nice show!~ reali..ppl..u can go watch it...farni n nice!!

no comment..

well..i dun wan sae aniting bout my r/s le...cos i dun wan 2 tink bout it...nw more worry 4 wendy..she's facin sum prob..dun wan elaborate here...juz hope she's fine n dun xiang bu kai...arghh!! wendy! dun cut urself again arh!! if nt i die 4 u 2 c!! ur prob will b over soon!! can b solved de! perhaps nw u cant gt over it..but time will heal alrite...believe mi!!! time reali reali can help u de!! hai..keep tinkin tt i've affected ur tinkin...i shuden haf sae cuttin myself w penknife n blah blah thing..felt tt i've affected u...dun sae no cos tiz wil reali affect u in 1 wae or another..so if u wan mi feel better...pls dun hurt urself again le...cos if u hurt urself..it means u dun care bout us..ur frens n family at all..ok!! dun mk mi worry le..i'll b there n help u de k!!!

well..

hmm..yest afternn determined 2 break up w him..after tt at nite felt abit weird n nt q.use...but i dun reali feel sad or cry..went online in e afternn n saw his buddy--joel's frenster msg askin mi 2 sms him..cos he wan tok 2 mi bout zhaowei...dunno if i shud sms him but i juz sms him 2 tell him bah...2dae felt weird y i broke up w him..chat w him online in e afternn n i felt bad...cried in e evenin when i'm in my rm changin clothes..i was huggin my pillow den i sudd cry..haha! tts e 1st time i cry since i break up w him since yest afternn..dunno y i cry..maeb abit bu she de bah..but after tt i felt better n lyk nahtin happen again...my mood changes damn fast til i cant even believe it..haha! den went 2 orchard w family..was tinkin y i broke up w him on papa's car..sumtimes i feel tt its better 2 break up..den sumtimes i abit bu she de..i v.weird 1...felt bu she de when i'm in my rm..den told myself tt its better 2 break up when i'm on papa's car...den he msg mi askin wat i'm doin....den we juz sms each other til nite..i told myself 2 cool down n tink properly..cos i dun wan patch liao i stil break up w him..it'll b lyk double hurtful 2 him bah..so i reali wan tink carefully if we reali suitable nt..he called mi at bout 9 cos its his free time le..so we juz chatted..tried 2 act as normal frens..tokkin bout whether tiz fri goin out w him 2 watch movie..we dun sound lyk we juz break lor..haha! he saed he feels weird nt bein w mi..actuali i oso abit bah..but i feel tt its cos we nt use 2 it bah..maeb we shud nt contact each other 4 sum time? izzit better lyk tiz? maeb we'll noe wat 2 do after coolin down 4 sum times? nvm..too lazy 2 elaborate further le...wun sae more..juz wan 2 thanks my frens hu r concerned bout mi n soli if i mk u guys worry..i'm ok..wun depress or kill myself de lah!~ haha! thanks ppl!~~

loss of words..i'm a bitch...

幸福和不幸福的人都不会珍惜幸福。
我就是那个曾经幸福的人。

hai..tink e above chi words cant b seen...tiz iz wat i sae above:
xing fu he bu xing fu de ren dou bu hui zhen xi xing fu. wo jiu shi na ge ceng jing xing fu de ren.

well..it saes ppl with n without happiness wun cherish happiness..i'm e person hu once has happiness...

i'm useless..

felt tt i'm useless! guess i've hurt sum1 hu lyk mi n owaes dote on mi by breakin up w him..he helped mi sae break up cos he noe i wun haf e heart 2 sae out..well..didnt reali feel aniting when i'm goin 2 break up w him..but after readin e 2 msgs he sent..i abit bu she de n tears were in my eyes..but i cant cry cos i'm on my papa's car..i wun cry bah..at most 2nite cant slp nia..but i can mk myself drunk so i'll fell aslp..aniwae..u'r reali v.nice 2 mi...reali!! its great 2 b w u too..we stil can b frens i believe?? u wun hate mi or avoid mi de rite? i'm reali v.soli...deeply soli....m i a bitch? hai...felt lyk a bitch nw...hai......

full wk~

haven been online since sch started...cos v.tired when i reached hm..wed release at 12 n went shoppin w beina, peiru n peiyu~ i'm so damn tired after tt..haha! oready v.tired le but stil haf 2 go cos cannt promise them 2 go den last min cancelled..but stil i enjoyed myself~ peiru n i even tried on those dresses which they called trash bags..haha! but we q.lyk e dresses~ maeb its time i change myself..wanted 2 go hm rest after shoppin but my mei called mi tt my ex-neighbour wanted mi n her 2 go their hse eat dinner~ they r v.nice ppl!!! didnt wan 2 go but no choice..cos mei sae ok n sumore they r frenly ppl!~ overall..tiz wk iz busy n tirin 4 mi...but i enjoyed e most~~ felt occupied n i q.enjoyed tiz feelin~ guess i wun haf tiz feelin again cos tiz yr goin 2 b more busy n stress den yr 1....

thot bout my r/s w him n i felt tt we'r nt suitable 4 each other..even ppl ard mi tink tt we r nt suitable long ago..juz tt i tried 2 put in effort n dun tink too negatively...erm..i dunno hw 2 sae...hai...dun wan 2 elaborate..cos its b/t us n so its nt fair 2 sae much here..juz 1 sentence...seriously we haf 2 tink n i guess its time i let go...