where did i put? or sum1 had stolen it?

slp til 5 den wk up! slp more den 15h!! arghh!! plan 2 study frm 3-5..but 5 den wk up..tried 2 study but i juz cant! so went 2 bath..tried 2 study again but stil no mood 2 study..arghh! mum told mi 2 cook udon myself 4 dinner cos she didnt cook..v.happi cos long time nv eat udon le..so wanted 2 finish 1 chp b4 i go cook udon eat..in e end...mum went 2 cook claypot noodles n told mi she cooked claypot noodles le..if cant finish den let my mei eat...wah lao eh!! i damn angry w her lor!! owaes lyk tt!! let mi happi 4 nahtin!!! thot can eat udon later n she didnt even tel mi she cookin!!! arghh!! evelitime she lyk tt i damn angry w her de! i juz dun lyk tiz thing 2 happen!! aiyah! dunno hw 2 sae lah!

juz finish a chp nia..was readin e last part of e chp n sudd gt e thot of cuttin myself again...looked 4 e pen knife in my pencil box but i cant find! hu e hell tk it!!! arghh!! where did i put it?!! dunno iz i anihw put or sum1 tk it...there's another penknife in e pencil holder on my table..but its nt mine..so dun feel lyk usin it 2 cut myself..juz tk it out 2 plae onli..dun seem sharp 2 mi aniwae...hai..tink i go eat her claypot noodle..argh!! life sux!!!!!!!

earthquake

whoo~~ yest midnite was at e livin rm w my parents n both sis watchin tv...den sudd felt e sofa i'm lyin was rockin..at 1st thot was my leg movin e sofa..so i stp movin my leg..den stil felt abit rockin..so i didnt bother..cos i thot i've gt headache n graduali bcum giddy..haha! so continue 2 watch e show..den realise e whole hse was shakin after my mum asked izzit e hse movin..haha! e sofa was reali shakin n papa asked us go downstair...wahah!! tiz iz so exaggeratin man..its reali nahtin..juz tt e hse was shakin n can feel tt u r rockin...haha! so xcitin eh~ when we went down there's no 1..so farni! soon saw another family cumin down frm other blk..haha! they oso felt e vibratn so went down..haha! den saw a few hse switchin on their lights..maeb they felt e shakin too..so wk up frm their slp..weird but fun xperience..keke! sadist lah~ but so wat if earthquake reali cum..wat can i do..juz kil mi lah..dun wan tk ani exams n face soo mani prob in life! tired~

sian!

sian lah! my speakers had nt been workin 4 a v.long time le!! cant listen e songs in my com..cant change my blog songs..tts y i haven been changin my blog songs 4 so long le..duh..sian..wan 2 listen 2 my com songs soon!! cant listen ani songs whenever i'm online..so bored!! i cant live without music!! hai..exams cumin n i haven start studyin..yest chatted w dear on phone 4 1/2h..tink both of our phone bills gonna xplode again~ haha! wonder if he'll call mi 2nite..hopefully his hp gt enuff batt 2 let him call..had been tinkin alot pessimistic things since i slp after chattin w him yest nite..dunno y..keep tinkin those pessimistic things..he told mi his dream ger iz a thin n tanned ger..keke..n i told him i'm juz e opp..wahah!! he sae nvm, other den these, i fit e character... hmm...wonder if its true or he's juz hong wo nia..i even told him he'll find his dream ger 1 dae~ he sae dream ger iz owaes diffct 2 find..haha! nt reali bah..1 dae when u found 1..i guess it'll b e time i leave liao~ i'm bein pessimistic again..probably cos u r nt w mi n tt exams r cumin..haven start studyin at all...so i'm bein pessimistic again........

headache..need water n slp!

went out w bf yest..cant reali rem e details of wat happen yest cos i'm havin a headache nw..hmm...yest went 2 bugis w him in e late afternn cos he wan go e m1 shop 2 tk a look..saw my mei at seiyu cos she workin at muji..she told mi my bf looks nicer den in e pic when she gt hm..haha!! looks doesnt matter lah..muz haf gd character tts e most impt rite? aniwae, we went 2 suntec watch movie cos he wanted 2 watch a movie..we watched "a series of unfortunate events" cos we've been wantin 2 watch tiz movie..enjoyed e show n his accompanion! nice movie~ heehee..pei him go food court eat cos he hungry n by e time we went 2 suntec fountain iz bout 10 le..sat at e bench 4 sumtime n chatted~ both of us gt bitten by mosquitoes but its stil q.a nice place 2 rest..can c he's tired so ask him go hm rest instead of goin geylang eat supper w frens..but he sae he promised them le..so haf 2 go..in e end he didnt go cos his fren nv pick up phone..he pei mi wait 4 my bus b4 he tk 1..feel bad he pei mi wait cos its bout 11.45pm..scared later he no bus tk hm..sumore he live in jurong..so far!!!! chatted at e bus stp b4 tkin e bus n he saed he memorised my hp no~ haha! he even used maths 2 rem my no! he xplained 2 mi n i felt so amazin!! i didnt noe my no can b memorised in tiz wae~~~ zhaowei!!!! u r so sweeeett~~~~~ i'm so fortunate 2 noe u!!

2dae he msg mi at bout 10+..askin mi wk up le mah..he wanted go beach rd buy sum stuff n asked mi wan pei him nt..so i quickly wk up go bath liao den meet him lor~ but i was late..he oso insisted on waitin 4 mi at e outram purple line..sweet bf~ soli n thanks zhaowei~ went 2 e hawker centre eat after he bought his things..had hokkien mee 4 our lunch n its so nice~ thou abit dry lah..but it taste gd! den he pei mi go city hall buy bdae card..felt bad 2 let him accompany mi cos he've 2 rush hm prepare 2 bk in 2dae..he even helped mi choose~~ thanks alot! i luv e card he chose e 1st time but i nt enuff $ buy..so he helped mi choose alot more cards n i can c he's v.serious in helpin mi~~ thou he sae he abit jealous lah..cos i buyin 4 a guy..arhaha! but he stil willingly accompany mi n nv hurry mi *he haf 2 rush hm by 2 n its oready 2*...he's reali a sweet bf hu owaes tk gd care of mi..i'm so happi n fortunate~ hopefully tiz wil last long~~~~~ he asked mi if gf can attend e graduatn held july tiz yr..wil i wan attend his graduatn..hmm..was happi he asked mi 2 go..but i told him july iz stil a long time..dunno if we'll stil b 2gether by den..i noe i v.pessimistic..haha..he sae we'll stil b 2gether n told mi nt 2 b so negative..keke! i dunno hw long we'll last..as long as w u by my side..tts enuff le..

another cousin hu cum my hse swimmin~ cute too! 

act cool eh~ but stil v.cute! haha! 

=|ah boy|= 5yrs old cousin..luv him most! so cute~~ 

i look lyk ru hua nw..arhah!!

relatives cum my hse 2dae~ slp til bout 2 den go out of my rm 2 greet them..both my small cousins cum here swimmin..so cute of them! 1 of them 5yrs old le..e other i tink 2-4yrs old bah..nt sure..i was chattin online when yanxi asked mi if elise n mi wan go eat dinner nt..so i msg elise n we decided 2 go elise's hse since we haven go there 4 an xtremely long period of time..after decidin e place n time..i continued chattin online..den i showed my 5yrs old cousin, ah boy, his pic which i put in e com..he's so cute~ haha! awhile later he asked mi close my eyes n lead mi 2 my rm by holdin my hand..wat i saw iz a tidied bed!!! he had helped my mei n mi fold our blankets n place e pillows n soft toys nicely~~ omg! was so shock! arhahaha!! so so so so so so so soooooooooo cute of him!!!! tink he's sweatin after helpin us 2 tidy our bed..actuali iz mattress (i dun haf a bed)..keke! thanks arh boy! luv my ah boy so much~ sooo xtremely cute n nice of him! owaes tk care of ppl de..happi 2 haf a cousin lyk him~

went 2 elise's hse m i was late when meetin yanxi..so paiseh! reached elise's hse n i abit scared..cos her dogs r barkin so loudly! at 1st i'm afraid of animals..recently dare 2 allow dogs cum near mi le..but when i hear them bark i start fearin again..haha! after elise told mi they dun bite..i relax alot..nt scared of them animore!!~ yeahyeah!! i overcum my fear finaly! tt time pri sch go her hse omost cried cos her 3 dogs cum near mi n tried 2 jump on mi..haha!! nw..i overcum le~~ so happi! even can sit w them..watch tv n sayang them...keke!! great! had spaggetti at her hse n she helped 2 trim yanxi's eyebrow while i chattin w my bf~ feel bad tt he msg mi 2 times n i didnt c e msg..cos i didnt bring my hp down when eatin (she live in private hse)..chatted 4 bout 1/2h n its time 4 him 2 slp le..lights off mah..den elise wanted 2 trim my eyebrow too! feel tt yanxi looks nice after trimmin her eyebrow~ but i dun dare 2 trim mine cos i feel tt i wil look even uglier n sumore i nv trim my eyebrow b4!! 4 e past 18yrs! haha!! in e end let her trim cos she's my best fren n i trust her~ noe her 4 11yrs le!! *cheers* she dun dare 2 trim too high up cos she scared i nt used 2 it..her skill nt bad leh~ but i feel tt i look lyk ru hua nw...wahhaah!! my mum sae tiz eyebrow shape suits older ppl..n tt i dun look gd w tiz eyebrow shape...my jie sae last time she trim, she felt tt she looks lyk lizard...wahha!! so farni! can u imagine?? lizard?! yucks! at least i look lyk ru hua?? ani better?? whaha!! feel tt my eyebrow too black..maeb i shud dye brown?? keke!

hehe! my bf~~ 

elise n yanxi!!~ noe them since pri sch! owaes v.happi n xcited 2 go out w them!! hope 2 c them soon again~~~~ 

=|baba family|= my clique in poly..dunno hw 2 survive in sch without them!~ 

slpy~

2dae's last dae of sch le..cos exams startin nxt wk..went out w baba family 2 bugis~ ate at seoul garden for 4 n 1/2h b4 goin 2 tk neoprints...nv tk neoprints 2gether b4..after tt we pei jessica go jean yip cut hair~ woohoo! her hair iz shorter den mine le~ looks so nice n high cls!! wendy met her bf at bugis while e rest of us sat at mac n wait 4 jessica's bf..they told mi call my bf 2 c if he's out liao nt cos its oready 7+..but i dun wan..scared disturb him..they kept askin mi call so i juz msg him..ahah! soon jessica's bf reach le..e 4 of us juz sat there chattin..they wanted 2 pei mi wait 4 my bf 2 call but i saed no need..cos i can go hm if he cant cum out 2dae..juz tt i'll feel bad leavin my mei alone w my parents 4 e dinner at relative's hse..didnt wan 2 go cos v.sian..i insisted tt they dun haf 2 pei mi cos dun wan them waste their time..quant ruu goin hm eat dinner n i dun wan disturb jessica n her bf..so quant ruu n i went hm..

on my wae hm, bf called mi n saed he juz cum out n wil tk bus straight 2 srg 2 meet mi..wanted him 2 go hm 1st but he dun wan..told him i go hm 1st cos hp no batt..met him at srg interchg n we went 2 e prata shop near my hse 4 dinner..he ordered 3 pratas!! i was so shock n surprise lor! hw can he finish so much food?? haha!! BIG APPETITE!~ in end he cant finish..haha! c lah! waste food huh~ chatted 4 awhile b4 goin hm~ scanned e neoprints we tk 2dae after bathin..wil post them later..

yeah!

yeah!! e proj i worried n hate most had ended!!! had idea presentatn after sch n it's tirin..cos didnt slp well yest..wanted 2 prepare e script but i'm too tired after chattin w my bf on phone 4 more den 1h yest nite..after chattin w him..tried 2 write wat i wan 2 present 4 idea 2dae..but i kept on fallin aslp..so i juz lie on my bed w lights on n my idea proposal on e bed..tried 2 write but fell aslp..thru out e whole nite i kept wkin up n tried writin..juz start tinkin wat 2 write onli n i fell aslp again..tiz continue 4 e whole nite..tts y didnt slp well..sumore haf 2 wk up at 6 cos sch starts at 8 2dae..sian! its all over nw!!!!!!!! yeah!!!!! a little bit relieve cos all proj n presentatn had ended~~ but!!! e exams r cumin n i haven started aniting!!!? omg..oready can imagine e consequences of failin e modules liao..sian!!! stress~~~~~ shud start studyin le..no mood lah! heard frm clsmates tml wil b our last dae as a cls studyin 2gether..wah..didnt realise til they told mi..so sad!! sudd thot of all e things we do 2gether durin these less den 1yr time..gona miss those daes..definitely wil miss my baba family too!!!!!!!!!!! awwww~~~~ hw i wish baba family wil b in e same cls 4 these 3yrs!! duno hw i'm goin 2 survive without their presence n supports....sudd feel sad tinkin baba family splittin in2 diff cls...a new change of environment iz so tirin..haf 2 adapt asap..sumore my clsmates haf been such wonderful frens 2 mi~ hw i wish we can study 2gether 4 e rest of our daes in poly! *i'm dreamin again..hai* dun even noe my clsmates 4 a yr n i feel tt they r v.sweet n nice frens~ they wil care n help 1 another de~ v.frenly n fun too~ wil miss those daes~

pessimistic..stress..depression again!!

papa drove mi 2 sch in e mornin..was chattin w him on e car n tok bout bgr.. *my parents dunno i gt bf..cos i noe they wun approve i start a r/s at tiz age..but stil wanted 2 test if he allow mi haf bf at tiz age* den he was lyk saein studies more impt..shud nt start r/s durin studies age..tok bout my jie n her bf too..den papa sae guys b4 n after servin ns iz diff..shud at least start r/s after they serve ns..n guys frm age 16-21 r nt dependable..wah..after hearin tiz i heavy-hearted liao..cos papa iz q.gd at analysin ppl..in my heart he's a v.pro person..tts y wat he saed owaes affected mi..so i controlled my tears..was tinkin bout my r/s...as i saed b4, i'm a v.pessimistic person hu feel tt happiness iz short..wat papa saed mk mi feel even more pessimistic..i kept quiet when i reached sch..went 2 cls w frens n i buay tahan le..went 2 toilet 2 cry..wendy accompanied mi..tok 2 her in e toilet..told her tt when i'm w my bf..i feel happi n xing fu cos he v.nice 2 mi..sumore q.understdin too..

den exams cumin le..nxt wk start n i didnt noe! so i v.worried if i dun pass my modules..n tt when my parents found out i gt a bf..they wil tink iz cos of e r/s tt affect mi..but ppl hu noe mi well wil understd tt i reali slack alot..iz nt cos of r/s..so i v.stress..dun wan 2 fail ani of my module!! can onli meet him 4 1 dae eveli wk..so of cos i wan 2 go out w him~ hmm..hw 2 sae ne..i need time 2 study n meanwhile i wan go out w him..*thou i reali dun feel lyk studyin lah..but bo bian..dun wan others tink its cos of r/s tt affect mi!* so wendy was tellin mi, "since he's understdin..u can ask him accompany u study on wkend.." but i wil feel bad askin him 2 accompany mi study..cos he can go out w frens n enjoy instead of sittin beside mi doin nahtin..dun wan him 2 feel bored or lonely..but wendy sae if he's nice 2 mi n iz understdin..he wun mind...hai...but i wil stil feel bad...arghh..juz feel tt there's alot alot prob n things in my mind! tml idea presentatn *e worst proj tt i worried most! no appetite eat cos of tiz proj..cried cos of tiz proj..*; exams cumin n i didnt noe; parents' prob...........

waitin 4 him 2 call mi at nite..duno if he can feel i gt prob cos i msg him juz nw..i nv msg him since he serve ns..owaes wait 4 him 2 msg mi or call mi at nite den i reply..cos i'm afraid tt i'll disturb him..so wil quietly wait 4 his sms or call at nite...dun wan him 2 worry.............

soo happi!!

yeah!! went out w liz n yanxi after sch~ end at 1..met yanxi 1st 2 gt sum stuff 4 liz~ both of us bought her a card n choc 2 cheer her up..yanxi bought a door hanger 4 her as so called bdae present..keke! b4 meetin liz..i ate 1 whole packet (6bars) of dark choc!! iz 1 whole packet alrite! arghh..i jian fei-in nw n haven been eatin choc 4 wks or perhaps mths?? nv eat dark choc b4..rem my bf lyk 2 eat dark choc..so wanted 2 try..hehe! but i'm crazy enuff 2 eat e whole packet..aniwae e 3 of us sat down at cafes n chatted~~ its reali nice chattin w them!! e feelin iz soooo xtremely gd n we juz kept on chattin n tokkin bout our lives~ we've known each other since pri sch! noe liz since p1 n yanxi since p6~ such warm feelin chattin w gd old frens! learn alot of things n noe more bout their recent lives~ oso recalled alot memories we had in e past..its all soo memorable n we all miss those times lots!! tk neoprint too~ wil scan e pic when i'm free..reali misses e times we had 2gether n hopefully we can go out again soon n more often! liz saed she wanted 2 ask mi out 4 drinks at nite (we stae q.near) but scared my mum wil scold mi..hehe! dun bother bout my mum lah..at least she noe u n wil allow us go out at nite de~ as 4 e clubbin part..hmm..dunno can or nt..haha!!

missin u~

did proj in e mornin til bout 4..was xcited cos goin 2 meet my bf 2 c him off b4 goin back 2 army..but..didnt go meet him in e end..cos he meetin w his frens 2 bk in 2gether..at 1st he wanted cum srg meet mi..but i sae he can go meet his frens..better 2 go back w frens..dun wan him goin back alone..so plannin 2 meet him at jurg mrt but after i rush hm bath...i told him i feel odd goin out w a grp of guys n i dun wan c his sad face..so he sae ok..n we didnt meet n i didnt c him off........abit regretted lah..y i didnt c him off?? but aniwae..he's on his wae there le..he sae haf 2 b there by 9..so hope evelithin's fine 4 him!! actuali if he sae he wan mi go c him off..i definiteli fly there..hahaa!! lookin 4ward 2 wkends~~

xing fu~

went out w my bf 2dae~ 2dae's our 1st date! met him at lavender n i was late..feel bad..den we walked 2 beach rd cos he wanted 2 buy sum army stuff..after tt we walked ard e area n sat at a stone chair cos he wan put e things he bought in2 his bag..we chatted 4 awhile there b4 headin 2 toa payoh..he wanted 2 buy a watch..so i told him my ex-neighbour sell watches at tpy..while walkin 2wards e shop..i saw kenneth chong! was tellin my bf scarly saw frens at tpy..keke! long time nv c kc le..wave 2 him n he smile at mi~ haha! its been a long time since i c him smile so happily..cos he owaes v.quiet de..aniwae my bf bought a watch at e shop w a discount..we walked ard tpy b4 goin bugis..cos he wanted 2 tk neoprint~ haha!! reached there ard 7 le..went 2 tk card neoprint..he keyed in wrong thing 4 e 1st card neoprint we tk..haha! cos we duno we onli haf 2 key in 1 name 1st..so we keyed in both our names..so farni..later realise there's another name 2 key in..arghh..den we both stun..keke! so he juz aniwae key "m1stak3 ah"..hha! sound weird~ tk another card neoprint n there's sumting wrong w e machine while waitin 2 print..aww..y lyk tt..but stil manage 2 print out cos he asked e person 2 tk a look at e machine..yeah~ finali gt a pic w him~ keke! can look at e pic when i miss him...hehe! went 2 ps at bout 9 cos we wanted 2 watch e movie "a series of unfortunate event"..but onli left single seats..omg..so unlucky 2dae! so we juz walk ard ps..he bought a canned drink n we sat at e steps outside ps 2 rest n chat..went hm at bout 10+ cos can feel he's reali tired le..sumore he insist sendin mi hm..so dun wan too late go hm..if nt he collapse..hhaa..enjoyed myself 2dae!~ hw i wish can c him off tml..he saed he bkin in bout 5+..hai~ duno can c him off nt..if my idea proj end earli..maeb can?? but we abit nt efficient de..haha..so owaes do frm mornin til nite..so tirin~

happi at 1st...but...

yest's blog:
went 2 sentosa w peiru after sch..reach there bout 6 le..cos sch end at 5..purposely go there sit monorail~~ arhaha!! cos i wanted 2 sit on sat/sun when i w clsmates doin charity at sentosa..but no 1 go w mi in e end..so i sian..asked peiru if she wan go w mi on mon..but she nt free..so went 2dae~ woohoo~~~ soo nice!! its e last dae of e monorail n its bcumin history le..q.sad when tink bout it..but we manage 2 sit 4 e last time!! tk e monorail 4 1 whole round b4 stpin at e musical fountain statn..wanted 2 watch e musical fountain n its omost showin..tk q.alot of pic b4 enterin e place..we watched e 7.40pm show n there's alot ppl! we manage 2 find a seat at e rite hand side..when it ended..we went 2 BK 2 buy sum food n rush back 2 e fountain there 2 catch e 8.40pm show..haha! nt so mani ppl n found a seat at e left hand side~ watched 2x at 1 go~~ woohooo!! its reali soooooooo sweet n beautiful n cute!!!! both of us felt tt we sudd bcum pri kids~ arhaha!! but its reali nice 2 watch e fountain! feel happi n 4gt eveliting else lyk those stressful things in life~ feel GREAT watchin e musical fountain n sittin e 2nd last train of monorail!!~~ even saw reporter n cam when we waitin 4 e monorail..peiru back face e cam while i look awae..so silly! overall REALI enjoyed my dae w peiru!!!~ hopefully we'll go again!! yeah~

but...happiness iz owaes short...after bathin when i reach hm..i went 2 my rm 2 listen songs..den sudd my jie cum in n asked did i hear wat my parents sae..saein they r arguin....omg..i was stressed up man! cos i preparin my script 4 tml's presentatn n i haven finish!! my prob haven solve yt n others cum!! arghhh! i omost kill myself! sumore my mum ordered all of us go listen wat my papa did..arghh! my mum keep scoldin n shoutin at my papa..didnt even let him haf e chance 2 tok..i soo pissed off til i shouted at her (both sis n mi r standin outside e door),"U WAN GIF AH PA TOK NT!!" i was reali pissed off at e time..its 1+am n they r arguin! wah piang eh..my mei started cryin n i used a v.serious n fierce tone tellin her nt 2 cry..den soon my jie oso cried..so i pulled her in2 her rm n scolded her nt 2 cry..asked her stae in her rm if she wan cry..cos i dun wan let them hear her..i was reali pissed off w my mum tt i didnt cry! last time i cry til e most jia lart when they quarrelled...cos i reali didnt xpect they wil quarrel til so scary n even tok bout "DIVORCE"....can onli sae my papa iz reali feelin v.hui xin n upset n depressed...she's reali damn damn damn xtremely paranoid n shud haf b more understdin! argh..but cannt blame..cos she nv work..owaes stae at hm..duno wats e world outside nw..reali wan SLAP all e bitches n sluts out there!!! dun try 2 act pathetic n act close w others u dun reali noe!! disgustin!! yucks! juz go awae cos u will live in hell if u c mi!!! hai..idea proj duein n exams cumin...n i noe nuts bout all my modules! arghh!! reali hope 2 pass all my modules..dun wan 2 retk ani of e module!

so blur 2dae!!! blind liao huh!

1st thing in e mornin i did a damn xtremely v.toopid thing!!!! we (baba family) walked in e clsrm n saw onli 3 ppl there..cos alot ppl pon sch..yest too tired helpin out at sentosa n most of us sunburnt..can u imagine i sunburnt?? arghh...dun wan 2 gt too tanned..haha!! wil scared..keke!!! oh yah..bout e toopid thing..e moment we sat down..i tk out my hp n saw a miss call..iz frm siti..den i thot she wan asked mi gt go tut nt..so i quickly call her back..den she asked mi y i call her..i stun..cos she's e 1 hu called mi wat..den she started luffin out..n eveli1 ard mi started luffin!! arghh!!! siti iz in e cls sittin e row behind mi!!!!!!!!! omg!! reali soo toopid n blur!! nahtin 2 sae man!! tink i blind le lah!! haha!! too tired i guess..cos reali dun wan go cls 2dae..but force myself go..arghh..can even walk w eyes closed..

another toopid thing i did 2dae iz..when guocheng (saw him at dover mrt), wendy n i tkin e escalator at dhoby ghaut..we tk e 1st 1 liao..den when we wanted 2 tk e 1 tt wil bring us up 2 e exit 2 ps..i saw guocheng walkin 2 e left side..thot he goin off..didnt ask him..den saw wendy oso walkin left..so i asked her, "where u goin?! here lah!" after i asked her..i sudd wk up..i walkin 2 e wrong escalator!! e escalator iz cumin down but i wan go up!!! arghhh!!!!!! soooooooo toooooopiiiidddd rite!!!! omg!!!!!! so blur leh..duno y i 2dae soooooo blur n toopid leh!!! arghh!! soo irritatin! blind le!!

sian..tired..

yest gt mob presentatn..after sch went 2 tiong bahru eat dinner n den quant, lee min, jonathan n junda cum my hse do idea proj..they even miss e last train hm! quant called 2 ask if can stae at my hse but in e end she saed no need cos she tk cab hm..e rest oso tk cab hm..

2dae went 2 sentosa w most of my clsmates 2 set up our game stalls..its 4 charity thing..its held tml..at tanjong beach..at 1st q.tirin cos waited at e shuttle bus area 4 more den 1h..sumore its xtremely hot!! oh yah..2 liz: liz!! i wore e sleeveless t u gaf mi as bdae present!!! arhaha!! 1st time wear leh!! haha!! n i look so white~~ keke!! thanks aniwae~

while waitin at e shuttle bus area..lee min asked mi a qn..huiyun arh..u gt a bf huh? wahah!! i nodded my head n asked her hw she noe..q.surprise she noe! den she told mi she n jonathan guessed de..haha! izzit tt obvious tt i gt a bf quant?? cos quant sae iz obvious..didnt wan 2 tell too mani ppl cos our r/s juz start onli n he's in ns..feel tt its nt so stable..maeb i'm more pessimist..quant told mi she feels tt we wil last long but i feel differently...duno y oso..these 2 nites he'll call mi 2 chat..yest chat 4 1/2h n 2dae chat less den 10min..if he continue 2 call mi eveli nite i guess his hp wun last til tue..maeb we shud juz use smses..but feel lyk chattin w him~

glad its settled

finaly wat i'm considerin 4 a dae iz r settled! has been tinkin soo long n nv reply him..actuali juz nw when i c his blog..wanted 2 sae yes..but while msgin..he saed he wan b frens le..cos he scared cant tk care of mi n no time 4 mi when he go ns..feel tt wil let mi down..den i told him i was goin 2 sae yes le so i ask if he stil wan b frens..den he sae yup..he called mi at 12+ n chat..sae b frens bah~ so i ok lor..half wae chattin e line was cut..dunno wat happen..so i msg him tell him no need call back..cos thot his hp no batt n sumore he w frens mah..den after a while he called mi again..was q.surprise..so asked him if he received my msg..he saed yah..but he saed he changed his mind after wat his frens told him..he told mi his frens sae tt his xcuses r toopid n blah blah...den he saed he oso feel tt his xcuses r toopid..can hear his voice changin..nv hear him sound tiz wae b4..was tinkin if he's cryin..he asked mi if i willin 2 b his gf~~ asked him if he's serious bout it..n he saed yah..so.."ok~"

well..nw i tink bout it..nt sure if he's sure of tiz nt..cos he wanted 2 b frens liao..den after hearin wat his frens sae..he wan mi b his gf again..wonder wat his frens reali sae 2 him...hope he gt tink carefully bout it HIMSELF n its nt influence by wat his frens sae...haha~ but i guess he gt tink bout it lah..aniwae..tk care when u in ns~

勇气

thou these r lyrics frm a few songs..tiz iz hw i'm feelin n tinkin nw...
我相信 你人是好的
爱真的需要勇气
我们都需要勇气去相信会在一起
短短青春要像烟火
看老公公和老婆婆在散步着 把手牢牢握着 星星亮了 我觉得幸福就是这样的

well..i'm xtremely confuse nw!~~ i reali dunno wat 2 do...been tinkin bout e qn 4 whole dae le stil haven cum up w an ans!!! arhh!! wat shud i do??? maeb i shud gif it a try?? but i dun wan 2 hurt ani 1..afraid 2 hurt ani 1...or izzit i tink too much n too far le?? hai...i guess..most prob..i'll accept bah........i wan a guy hu can protect mi..dote mi...sweet n romantic oso...izzit alot????? r u e 1 i've been wishin 4??

saw tiz in beina's blog n went 2 try out~

You Are 55% Left Brained, 45% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others. If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic. Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet. The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility. Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way. If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art. Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

finaly cut my hair..

didnt reali feel gd when i wk up..saw tt my hp iz chargin..feel weird cos didnt turn on e switch at all..after wash up, went back 2 c my hp..its nt chargin n onli left 2/3 batt nia..m i hallucinatin?!!! but i confirm i didnt c wrongly! nvm..den i stomachache..dunno wat junk i ate tt mk mi stomachache..no appetite 2 eat breakfast..drink coffee n went sch..felt lyk vomitin n dun wan go sch..but stil go..half wae e lesson v.hungry..bought 2 sandwiches 2 eat..lyk hungry ghost..keke!

nt in gd mood in e 2nd lesson (onli gt 2 cls 2dae)..dunno y..maeb cos crs iz reali drivin mi mad..it's worst den eng cls..readin essay lyk machines!! sumore v.tired..den after cls stil need do mob proj..tinkin of all e things cumin on n on..i break down again..tears omost cum out but i controlled..scared my frens wil shock n tt sissy tang (teacher) wil scared..haha! manage 2 control..didnt tok 4 most of e time..msg zhaowei durin cls tt i cant go movie w him later..cos no $..sumore i need 2 do proj..dunno wil do til wat time..even thou yest he saed he can wait..but i stil feel bad lettin him wait..so told him cant go..soli arh~~ paiseh!

did proj til 3+..saw yinru while waitin 4 e train w quant..went hm w yinru n at 5+..she pei mi go kovan cut hair~~ hoho!! thanks arh! tiz iz e 2nd time she pei mi cut hair..same salon oso..cos there's e cheapest i noe..i reali broke..mum gaf mi $20 b4 i go sch cos when she asked mi if i gt $, i kept quiet n shook my head..haha! she omost asked mi evelidae cos she noe i reali no $ w mi..so touched.....felt lyk cryin when i tk e $ frm her..ahha!! thanks mum~ spend sum of it on food n left $12..nt enuff 2 cut hair..so i tk alot coins frm e $ container..scared nt enuff so haf 2 tk my ONLI $6 ang bao $..didnt wan 2 tk..but bo bian lah..hai~ finali gt my hair cut! my hair nt tt thick le..cut fringe oso..nt so messy nw..but stil as wavy..hai~

didnt blog 4 soo mani daes?!

didnt notice i haven been bloggin 4 a wk! tts so unusual bout mi! guess i reali too busy le..nw editin mob proj..but abit dunno edit wat..so cum 2 blog wat happen tiz few daes..

4th mar(fri) [supper w frens]
went out w beina, peiru n peiyu at 10+pm 2 haf supper..keke! actuali iz dinner..ate cheese mushrm prata~ so nice! but was scared by a cat at e coffeeshop..screamed n put my legs above my chair..scared e hell out of mi! they were luffin at mi..sae i v.embarrassin..haha!! but i reali scared wat..sumore i wear shorts n slippers..dun lyk e cat pass by mi..scary~~ we sat at e bus stp waitin 4 e bus..cos peiru n peiyu nt staein at my hse..den i told them e ghost story i heard..omg..all our hair stands..aniwae..they went hm at bout 12+ while beina n i sat at e chairs beside e swimmin pool after she bath...we sat there til bout 3 2 watch stars!!~~ so nice n coolin! hope nxt time stil can watch stars downstair..keke!

5th mar (sat) [eerie~~]
did idea proj at marina sq food court..my god..its so tirin..sumore i'm late cos i pei beina wait 4 her bus in e mornin..did e proj til fell aslp..on e wae 2 mrt..saw a lady doin prayers at e esplanade..its kind of scary..nv c b4..quant ruu was reali scared when she saw e lady puttin her own hair in2 her mouth..ppl sae she shaved e hair n put it inside..arhh! scary~

6th mar (sun) [temple..proj..concert..]
went 2 long hwa temple at bout 9 in e mornin cos wed wil b e 49th dae my grandma passed awae..den my papa cried when we were kneelin n offerin food 2 grandma..omg..i was reali heart broken when i c him cried..controlled my tears n gt flu..was reali sad n heartache..didnt tok much after e thing when papa drived mi 2 airport 2 do crs proj..jessica asked mi if i'm ok e moment i sat down..haha! she can sense i gt sum prob..she saed i look tired..i told them (baba family) tt i'm juz sad nt tired..n we continued 2 do proj..ate 2 set meals 4 lunch alone!! omg..can u believe i eat 2 set meals in BK 4 my lunch?? cos i wan tahan til nite..left at bout 3..went hm n meet my jie 2 go NUS watch my papa's performance..actuali iz he conduct lah..nt perform..

yest (mon) [break down]
reached hm after eatin old chang kee's food at bugis w quant..den mum saed she wash my clothes liao..i q.angry cos i owaes change 2 my hm clothes b4 i go bath..den i closed my rm n cried..actuali nt cos of tiz thing cry..iz cos of alot proj cumin 2gether n i abit buay tahan..sumore i owaes feel i gt no or little contributn in all e proj..hai..feel useless n guilty..after i stp cryin..papa called n i asked mum listen..she saed she bathin liao..but its obviousli she dun wan listen cos she juz went in e toilet!!! arghh!! den i reali felt irritated n pissed off by her attitude..i juz told my papa dun care bout her..but he sae cannt..hai..so i juz help papa 2 ask her things..after hangin up e phone i locked myself in my rm..cried til v.jia lart..cos i feel tt i gt enuff prob liao my mum stil lyk tiz..hai..reali cant stand..

2dae [thanks liz!]
after sch meet elise cos she wan pass mi my present..den she pei mi go buy present 4 quant ruu cos tml's her bdae..thanks alot liz!! she's v.nice 2 pei mi shop ard bugis..felt bad..haha..realise my $ nt enuff n rem my mei workin at muji(seiyu)..so liz pei mi go muji find my mei~ wahah!! i tk $10 frm my mei n went 2 bugis street..bought quant a red bag w discount!!~ hoho..e guy was e 1 hu sold e bag 2 peiru..he oso gif discount last time..nw oso gif..he's so kind..haha! thanks arh~ ate cup corn w liz n went 2 coffeebean 2 drink ice mocha n eat triple decker~~ all so fattenin~~ haha! evelitime went out w liz sureli gt nice food eat~~ enjoyed goin out w her! haha!! chatted 4 bout 2h at coffeebean b4 we left..oh yah..she gaf mi a sleeveless t..light blue..its e 1 we saw in 77th street n tried 2gether..haha!! she bought a brown 1 tt time n i didnt bought cos i feel tt its v.small..den she bought a light blue 4 mi nw~~ arhaha!! she reali wan i wear tt t..keke! she oso v.you xin cos she write "yun" on e t usin fabric paint..luv it soo much~ cos its unique n iz written by her~~ hhaha!! wil try 2 wear it 1 dae...thanks alot liz!~

stil wan thanks...

2nd mar
thanks lee min, bixia n peihua 4 e bdae gift(glass dophin) they gaf mi 2dae..4gt 2 thanks a few more ppl: thanks zhaowei 4 treatin mi watch movie on my bdae! thanks peiyu 4 e bag! thanks yiwen 4 e bugis voucher! keke!! was xtremely tired 2dae!!! notice tt i owaes damn tired on wed!! omg..i reali tired til dun wan go sch..if i nt doin proj in e afternn..i definiteli pon whole dae..but need do proj..so might as well go sch..do proj at bugis til 9 n walk ard w quant ruu, peijun n yiwen 4 awhile..on e wae hm, fell aslp on e train til my head goin 2 drop! mi seldom slp til head lyk droppin while sittin on e train..guess reali too tired le..

2dae
durin stats tut..quant ruu told mi tt yest yiwen aka yew was askin if she's a guy, which ger she wil lyk in our cls..haah!!! tink onli yew can tink of tiz qn..rite yew??!! wahah!! quant ruu asked mi guess hu she chose..so i guessed jessica n wendy cos they'r our clique de..den she saed wrong..so i asked if e person iz frm our clique..she sae yah..wahah!! its obvious iz mi liao..cos we 4 r 1 clique(baba family)~~ i was reali tryin hard 2 guess hu's tt ger in our cls lor! nv thot iz mi..so farni n surprised~ asked her y she chose mi n she sae cos i'm frank n easy-goin~ reali?? haha!! thanks arh quant! feel so honoured~~~~ did MOB proj after sch n i'm so tired nw~ another proj iz done at least..but there's stil e presentatn..stil left 2 to 3 proj..so tirin!! tml goin 2 eat supper w peiru, beina n peiyu at chomp chomp!~ haha! actuali xinyi goin w us..but she cant cos she gt cip e nxt dae..wil b tired..so sad!!! duno if i'll b too tired til faint b4 meetin them..keke! cos sch end at 5..plus haven been slpin enuff continuously 4 long time..my health iz deterioratin i guess..

thanks alot frens!!!

reached hm at 11.30pm...went out w zhaowei after sch 2 watch movie..howl's movin castle...was a nice show~ dun tink i wil watch if he didnt suggest..tiz kind of movie nv appear in my mind..haha! he wanted 2 celebrate his freedom cos mon was his last dae of work..keke..so weird huh?~ aniwae watch e movie at tiong bahru plaza..den walk ard e area outside e plaza after watchin e movie..we were walkin circles again while chattin..haha!! tiz time iz BIG circles~ haha! den planned 2 go hm le cos i thot he meetin his frens..but he stil wan chat so we juz sat at e bench at e train waitin place..we chatted 4 bout 1h..haha!! tink our ezlink card gona fine til siao! keke! its 11 n so he went hm 2 meet his frens while i went hm 2 celebrate w my family~ they sang mi a bdae song n bought a choc cake 4 mi! tiz iz e 1st time i ate so little bdae cake cos i was too full..didnt eat dinner..cos e popcorn i ate juz nw mk mi full..dun go tiong bahru cinema! cos their popcorn nt nice de!!! yeeks! arhah! but e cinema stil nt bad lah...

v.tired nw..tml gonna wk up at 6 cos haf 2 reach sch at 8..tink gt com quiz later..den gt e lect's superviser goin out cls later 2 check y we owaes late 4 his cls..arhah! so i cant b late! soooooooooooo tired!! aniwae..wanted 2 thanks alot alot alot ppl 4 rememberin my bdae n thanks 4 e pressents!!

thanks yinru, wendy, guo cheng, yanxi, geok sim, xinyi, shichen, chialing, gaorui, siti, peiyu, peiru, sinyi, jiahe, whee geok, elise n wanrong 4 sendin mi bdae wishes (accordin 2 e sms time)!!!! reali v.happi n touch tt sum of them actuali rem my bdae~~ v.v.happi!! received sum of e smses in e earli mornin when i stil slpin..haha! bout 6+ lyk tt..aniwae, thanks guocheng 4 e bdae card! thanks quant ruu 4 e BIG bag! thanks jessica 4 e cube bracelet! thanks wendy 4 e fila slipper! thanks siti 4 e magnet bracelet! thanks pei jun 4 e bugis voucher (tink stil gt sum clsmates sharin w pei jun)! thanks daniel, jonathan, samuel n junda 4 e necklace! *v.surprise they bought mi a present..heard frm daniel they tk sum time 2 choose n shop frm shops 2 shops..haha! v.you xin of them~~*n 2 jonathan..v.soli didnt noe u wan shake hand w mi..its nt i bein dao n dun shake w u..whaah!! feel so bad nw..haha!!* thanks yinru, gaorui, beina n peiru 4 e bag! if i miss out ani1..soli! i dun mean it..soli~ thanks 4 all e presents!! luv them all!!~~