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went 2 yiwen's hse at 8 2 do proj..wk up at 6 lor..sat stil need wk up soo earli..sad man! tml goin her hse do proj again..sian! hopefully can finish earlier cos family maeb bring mi go eat dinner..hai..dunno lah..thot of slpin after reachin hm but need check mail cos jie sendin mi e pic n songs frm her hp..her hp no space le..haf 2 clear e pic n songs i tk n rec usin her hp..so if i can receive..she can delete those files..chat w peiru in e evenin n she let mi c her yahoo photo album..asked mi wan share w her..den i saed i go try open 1 myself..keke..n nw i've gt a yahoo photo album le~ hoho..cos jie sent mi alot pic frm her hp n i can upload in2 tiz album~~ can go there tk a look if u wan~ http://photos.yahoo.com/huiyun87

eyes so tired..

been so busy these few wks! arghh..its reali so tirin n stress!!! i'm glad wkend has cum!! hohoho! didnt slp well n nv eat dinner 4 these few daes..too busy tiz wk n too glad its over til i 4gt wat i've done tiz wk..hmm..let mi recall..tink mon gt stats test..hopefully can pass~ tue..nahtin much bah..wed..iz yanxi's bdae!! didnt buy her ani present..feel q.bad lah..happi bdae yanxi~ earli mornin gt itab presentatn..finali its over! at least 1 project lesser liao~ went 2 crystal jade w quant ruu, pei jun n yiwen at bugis 4 lunch..ate dumplin soup~ yummy! 1st time go there w frens..usuali go w family..cos e food iz so ex!~ feel bad after eatin ex food..didnt eat dinner..sumore v.tired..so slp frm 5+ to 11 when i reach hm..den quick go bath n watch jimmy on chn 8~~ miss e front part cos i overslp..hai..owaes lyk tt! wed iz owaes e most tirin dae..dunno y..tried 2 study econs but too tired..thur..wanted 2 pon stats tut..cos haven study fri econs test..but feel tt e lect iz a nice person..so dun wan b rude 2 him..decided 2 study when i reach hm..juz afraid nt enuff time..studied econs til 4 n fell aslp..even slp w e lights on..cos dun wan slp..but my eyes juz closed..slp w lights off at 6..onli slp well 4 bout 1 n 1/2h b4 i wk up..fri..wanted 2 pon omost whole dae but stil went 2 sch..cos i felt awk at 7.30 n my papa iz drivin mi sch..so went 2 e 1st lesson..pon gems cls 2 study econs..cos i haven start studyin e 2nd topic..n i haf no time!!! went 4 test at 5.20..glad tt its over!!!!!!! reali hope i can pass..didnt noe these 3topics at all n didnt manage 2 study finish..but its over!!! finaly i can slack abit liao~ but..tml haf 2 wk up at 6 cos goin yiwen's hse at 8 2 do mob proj..n she live at tanah merah area! so..haf 2 wk up v.earli~ later gonna read e article 1st so tml go her hse can discuss..hai..durin econs test headache til wanna die n gif up..nw better le..tink my eyes too dry nw..cos drink too little water..open eyes 4 too long cos nt enuff slp..didnt tk care of my eyes..so nw q.dry n tensed up..scared blind man..

so angry!! sian!!

arghh!! was deletin sum of e songs in my hp juz nw cos lack of space liao..wanted 2 delete alex fang li sheng's song -- hao hao lian ai...cos i gt tt song in my com le..den...i accidentali deleted e live version of tiz song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arghh!! so angry!!!! y i so silly!! my eyes gt BIG PROB man!! omg...so sian lah!! dunno haf 2 wait hw long b4 i can hear e live version of tiz song..haha..tink i'll nv hear it again...

didnt noe my bdae cumin until yest..baba family were tokkin bout yiwen's bdae cumin (2nd mar)..n iz nxt wk..den i v.shock..cos thot stil gt 2wks n more..didnt realise our bdae cumin le..den on my wae hm w yinru..she told mi she n gaorui, peiru n beina bought my present le..haha! so earli buy liao..found out tt my bdae iz on tue..which means i end sch at 5.....sian!! gona force my jie 2 buy bdae cake 4 mi 2 eat..haha!! owaes mk her buy bdae cakes 4 us durin parents or mei's bdae..keke! luv 2 eat bdae cake~ but its fattenin..i jian fei-in nw~~ but stil wan eat..dunno gt e interest 2 eat nt..abit loss interest in food nwadaes..hmm..guess wil stil luv 2 eat bdae cake bah~ hehe!

1st time watch chingay live~~

suppose 2 meet beina at 1pm yest 2 study at my hse..but she overslp..haha..reach at bout 3..in e end nv study..watch tv instead..waited 4 peiru 2 cum my hse..went 2 xinyi's hse at bout 5..den left at 6+..cos peiru meetin zhihuang at j8..feel bad didnt stae long at xinyi's hse..cos she invited us 2 her hse..den didnt stae long..went j8..saw taufik..sian diao~ soon zhihuang left n e 3 of us bought food n sat outside e mrt 2 eat..saw ms heng chattin on phone..but didnt call her..cos she seems busy n i eatin oso..went 2 somerset at bout 8 2 c if gt space watch chingay..didnt go orchard cos there sure alot more ppl..dun tink i can even gt e chance 2 squeeze out of e mrt..

found a place 2 watch..a shortie lyk mi cant c much unless i stand in front or e ppl in front of mi iz even shorter..haha! luckily gt fren lyk peiru..she helped mi find a place where i can c clearly cos nt much ppl blockin in front..she let mi stand in front of her cos sum 1 in front of her left..so gt space..she let mi stand there instead of occupyin e space herself..keke..v.thotful~ at bout 9+ we sat at e carpark near da pai dang n chat...chat q.alot n luff alot~~ mi owaes 4gt my unhappiness n stress when chattin w ani of my frens~ felt comfortable chattin at e carpark cos v.windy! feels lyk beach~ den went hm at bout 11..chat all e wae hm w peiru cos we tkin same train..mi goin 2 faint cos gt weird smell in e train....i v.scared of those smelly smell de lor..wil gt headache if smell too much..haha!!! gt headache on fri juz cos i smelled too much BO in e clsrm..luckily iz e last tut le..if let mi smell whole dae tink i sure die..ahahha!! maeb shud bring perfume n sprayed at e person hu gt BO..if nt jessica wil die b4 i even faint lor..arhahha!!

meaningless life..i need a BREAK!

i'm so bored...hai..sudd ask myself..wat's my goal in life?? hai...til nw i still dunno wat's my goal in life!! ever since i went in zhss..i've lost all my goal n tinkin n plaefulness...i reali dunno wat i wan do or wat i reali lyk? so sad...i'm leadin a meaningless life since sec 1...reali hope tt i'll noe wat i wan exactly n wat i actuali lyk..wish e dae wil cum! i need 2 b enlighten i guess..hai!! wat shud i do??!! wan 2 gif myself a break..but there's reali no time 2 haf a BREAK...there's juz too much proj n things happenin...DUN TELL MI wat self management or time management ting..its reali USELESS! DUN TELL MI time iz managed by ownself n there's no such thing as no time..all these r juz bullshit!!

tired..but enjoyed my dae~

2dae iz vdae~~ haha..went out w yanxi in e afternn~~ den i was late cos i doin proj...feel so paiseh~ soli arh yanxi!! we met at ps n watch seoul raiders at bout 5..b4 watchin we went food court...she gaf mi a red rose..thanks alot!! feel bad cos nv buy aniting 4 her..we chat 4 omost 2h..haha..feel gd chattin w her~ den rem last yr vdae we oso went out 2gether w chialing..haha! we both owaes go out 2gether on vdae~~ gona go beach w elise n yanxi sumdae soon!!!!!!!~~~ when?? haha! after watchin e movie..i pei yanxi wait 4 her fren hu wan pass her vdae present..wanted 2 go hm when her fren reached..cos i dun wan b lite bulb..but yanxi wan mi pei her..cos she feel uncomfortable n paiseh alone w him bah..actuali she agreed 2 eat dinner w him..in e end nv..cos alot ppl queuein in ps..waitin 2 eat dinner..sumore she v.full (we ate too much popcorn)..so tt guy sent us hm..wanted 2 tk e train myself cos as i sae..i dun wan b e lite bulb...haha! but yanxi pleaded mi 2 pei her tk e cab..she dun wan alone..den i feel bad nt 2 pei her..but oso feel weird appearin in b/t them..haha!

den i msg zhaowei wat happen n he asked mi out..but i on e cab w yanxi n her fren liao..keke..but in e end we stil meet lah..haha!! i called him b4 reachin my side gate..den i walk 2 e mrt cos we haven decide where 2 meet..den he saed he cumin over serangn 2 meet mi..haha..so gan dong~ feel q.bad cos he haf 2 travel v.far hm..sumore oready 8+ le..haha..on his wae here he chat w mi..didnt realise we tok on phone 4 omost 1/2h..i was sittin on e floor in serangn mrt statn waitin 4 him..lucky gt him chat w mi on phone man..if nt i reali can rot til die sittin there..ppl walkin past keep lookin at mi..as if i'm an alien or watever..big deal man~ argh! ahaha..by e time he reached iz 9 le..pei him go central cos he haven eat dinner..after tt we walk ard e mrt n my hse area..we were walkin ard e area repeatedly n chattin..reali juz walk here walk there..walkin ard in circles i tink..e weather iz so hot..i felt as if i'm in sauna juz nw! sumore i carryin a bag n a heavy laptop..iz reali v.heavy..my hands stil red n tremblin nw..tired~ my right ankle gt blister..old wound..haha..tink walk too much..den e shoe rub against my skin..so abit blister again..

i'm reali glad i've gt v.nice frens ard mi~~ thanks yanxi 4 e rose~ thanks zhaowei 4 nt mindin 2 travel far hm~ thanks 4 their accompanion~ thanks guocheng 4 e sweet n cute vdae mms~ thanks alot frens!!! happi vdae!!!~~

moodless.no feelin.tinkin of bcumin a nun.

feelin moodless nw...dun feel lyk tokkin 2 ani1...dun feel lyk smilin or luffin...dun feel lyk jokin w ani1....

dunno hw 2 sae..no more feelin 2wards ani1..feelin v.sian n tired..wanted 2 buy high heel shoe n dark-coloured clothes..but no mood at all..reali v.sian n sick of e world n life..feel lyk bcumin a nun..................oready gt tiz thot b4..

2dae papa sudd told my jie n mi he wan go bcum a monk...omg!! i v.scared lor...reali v.v.scared...dunno wat xactly happen b/t him n mama..thou he lyk smilin n jokin tt he wan bcum a monk...but i can tell he abit sian n sad bah..reali v.worried bout them.........but wat 2 do? jie ask mama y they quarrel..she told jie ask papa...ask papa he juz luff n saed nahtin happen..hw 2 help them if they dun wan tell us??? damn!!

no appetite 2 eat recentli..didnt eat dinner 4 these few daes le..cos reali no appetite..hai..ppl hu noe mi well wil noe tt if i no appetite 2 eat..it means i gt a big prob liao..maeb i'll juz go listen songs 2 mk mi feel better n live in my own world...

I REALI BUAY TAHAN LIAO!!!!!! KAO EH!!

juz return hm frm gentin nia..haven eat dinner..cos no appetite..thou plaed in themepark n arcade n saw alot yandaos in gentin...stil nt v.happi overal..cos mama's attitude 2wards papa stil v.bad..reali irritate all of us..my face was lyk totalli black whenever she shows her bad attitude...i kept controllin my temper..cos i noe i wil definiteli shout at her 2 stp all these toopid attitude n cos of all her toopid attitude..affect evelibody's mood! arghh...wah piang..mama showin attitude 2 papa again nw...ARGHH!!! dun tink i can control animore!!! gona scream at her soon i guess..cos my papa reali too gd liao..he kept toleratin all her toopid attitude..but papa 2dae afternn reali q.unhappi bout my mum's attitude..he juz kept quiet 4 a while..hai..so sad n angry man!! was tinkin wat m i livin 4???!!!! reali feel lyk jumpin off e buildin..y cant mama b more considerate?!!! argh! she juz scolded my mei cos she complainin bout e water my jie poured 4 her..but mei iz actuali plaein w my jie..mama juz dun understd! she scolded mei, " u wan 2 drink nt! u wan drink drain water izzit!?" den i reali buay song liao..i asked her usin v.angry n irritated tone, " U TIRED LIAO IZZIT!!" n she kept quiet..tink she go vent her anger on e washin machine n other things liao...can hear her bang things..kao eh! REALI CANT STAND IT ANIMORE!!!!!!!!!!!

sufferin frm depressn...

2dae iz cny le..sumore later 6+ goin gentin..but didnt feel e cny atmosphere...hai..no mood at all...sumore gt so mani proj n tests cumin...omg..i reali feel stressed n troubled!!!! dun feel lyk livin at all!!! mi oready gt enuff of my own prob n recentli...my mama iz mkin mi paper jam!! reali damn angry n irritated by her actions!!! i reali can kill myself man!! damn!! few daes ago i notice my mama dun wan tok 2 my papa...cos when papa called hm..she dun wan pick up e phone..she's juz beside e phone onli! i was sittin further awae n eatin my dinner..i asked her pick u e phone n she dun wan! she cant even help mi ans???!!! wah piang!! damn irritated!!! tink she quarrel w papa bah..but i reali dunno wat happen..she juz sudd cold war w papa..but papa was lyk normal..tok 2 her n she didnt ans..purposeli do all these toopid cold war thing! omg..i reali hate 2 c them cold war...actuali iz onli mama's prob lah..reali hate 2 c her purposeli dun tok 2 papa..omg! sumore she v.petty de..i reali wan bang my head against e wall man!

i reali felt damn frustrated n troubled in e afternn..didnt tok much n cried when i bathin..so they wun noe..hai!! was tinkin tt r/s can reali mk sum1 go mad! dun she noe tt by nt tokkin 2 papa..we children can b affected??? n its reali heartbreakin n terrible 2 c her quarrel w papa...juz wat had happen??? i reali feel troubled these few daes...onli meetin my old frens mk mi feel better..mon went out w xinyi, peiru n beina..felt gd goin out w them..hope i can go out w my frens more often..i guess i sufferin frm depressn..cos i reali dun feel lyk tokkin so much le..sumtimes feel lyk eatin alot..sumtimes dun feel lyk eatin at all..hai..all these stil small matter..recentli i wil sudd cry..nw bloggin oso feel lyk cryin..hai...juz nw saw elise's blog..tink she oso nt feelin gd..hope can go beach w her 1 dae!!! it's a long time since we go out 2gether le..but i dunno when wil b e dae 4 us 2 go beach 2gether..miss her alot~ hai..hope eveliting's fine 4 her..i wun b celebratin cny tiz yr..so later goin gentin w my family..fri den cum back...hope eveliting wil b fine over there n when we cum back..tink mama gt ans my papa le..but she stil use those nt happi tone 2 ans him...arhh!! i'm goin mad!! m i reali sufferin frm depressn?!!

it's my life by Jon Bon Jovi

This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud

Chorus:
It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
I break and say"I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
It's my life

This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting hard make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky
Got to make your owns breaks

Chorus:
It's my lifeIt's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
I break and say"I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
It's my life

Better stand tall when they're calling you out
Don't make no break, baby, don't back down

Chorus:
It's my life
And it's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
I break and say"I did it my way"
I just want to live while I'm alive

Chorus:
It's my life
And it's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
I break and sayI did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life!

wth iz wrong!

arghh!! feel damn frustrated nw!! was tryin 2 use my jie's thumbdrive 2 save my proj songs frm e com so tt i can transfer 2 e laptop where my proj iz in....but dunno wth iz wrong!!!! i save liao n open frm my laptop..i can open..but i cant save e things inside e laptop!!!! y!!!!?? can onli open frm thumbdrive...cant save in2 e laptop.....nw facin mi iz a com n a laptop...dunno hw 2 transfer song frm com 2 laptop...its soo near yet soo far!!! arghhh!!! WTH IZ WRONG!!! i'm reali a com idiot i guess...hai!!! so irritated! haven eat dinner..no appetite n mood..mum gaf mi 3 meatballs n mushrms..ask mi help 2 eat...hai..e plate iz stil hot infront of mi nw...no appetite leh...hai~~ but they r my fav!!~ change my blog song 2 "it's my life" by Jon Bon Jovi..luv tiz song e 1st time i heard sly sang..rock!

cham liao lah!! ze me ban??!!!

haf been doin e ITAB proj yest n 2dae at my hse...yest did frm 10am- 11pm...e 4 of us(baba family-quant ruu, jessica, wendy n mi) r sooo tired! tink they more tired den mi..cos stil haf 2 travel 2 my hse..we practicali stare at e com 4 bout 12h man! luckily we did most of e thing yest by doin e contents..tiz proj iz usin frontpg 2 create a web..so headache!! especiali when e 4 of us r nt gd in com..haha! 2dae start frm 10 til 6..did hyperlinks n bookmarks n other effects 2dae...omost done le..tink left postin 2 sp website..n a few other things..hai...so sian!!

been soo busy n haggard 4 all these while..v.long since grandma passed awae i haven been restin well...nt onli cos of grandma passed awae..oso cos of alot tests n proj...hai! i reali dunno hw long i can continue livin.....i reali reali dunno...at least i stil gt baba family, family n frens ard mi...but i duno hw long i can continue 2 push myself 4ward...i reali dunno!!!! when wil i gif up evelithing...includin life??!! e things tt push mi 4ward nw r family..frens n music..if i lost ani 1 of them..dun tink i can survive le...feel soo tired n stress! 2 mk myself nt so tired..i owaes tell myself tt others r more tired n stress den mi..but no use lah~ haha! didnt tok n luff as much as i did last time..cos quant ruu told mi 2 b bubbly again..didnt noe i'm bubbly last time until she sae so..

found out tt e account test i tk on fri has no retest! beina sae iz 4 those absent de..arghh!! i can go jump sea or bang wall le lah! if u c my test paper..u sure noe i wil fail! dun sae i wun..cos u haven c my paper..haha! aniwae..had a nitemare again..dreamt of leopard runnin 2wards mi n walk awae in e end..but its all black de..haha..weird dream lah..den dreamt tt e door of e lift i tk w another person didnt close n move 1 floor down..den it snap frm 8th floor..we juz fell all e wae...tink i reali mad bah..both dreams r methods of dyin..but in both dreams i nv die..guess in reality i wil~ keke!

its a busy dae~~

oh yeah!!! 2dae iz finali over!!!! 2dae iz my worst dae!! i mean sch dae..9-11 gt tt toopid IDEA presentatn n it turn out better den wat we xpected!! q.happi tt he finali lyk our design..FINALI LYK SUMTING FRM OUR GRP!! arhahah!! cant believe it when he sae he lyk our design n tinks it looks GD! glad tt tiz iz over..thou there's stil 1 more 2 go...hai..but at least tiz is over! ok..i'll continue wat's goin in sch 2dae..1-3 iz my gems test...didnt reali study..onli read abit on my wae 2 sch n durin lunch time..den 3-5 iz MOB tut..didnt manage 2 do e mock test n mrs loh iz soo kind 2 let us study our PACC..e 2h we juz study PACC while she help 2 mark those mock test my clsmates had done..she's reali a v.nice n understdin teacher!!! went 2 tk PACC test at 5+pm w a blank mind~ mi yest study til 5am lor..slp onli 2h n went 2 sch liao..didnt reali slp oso..cos was havin nitemare..dreamt of a car injured a cat n i kept cryin..dunno y i dreamt of tiz..maeb cos yest my x-neighbours' dog frightened mi..didnt noe they brought it 2 my hse..sudd saw a white thing flew past..n its their dog..n it kept jumpin in front of my legs..i v.scared dogs n cats de lor..but dunno y i didnt shout or cry when it jump on mi..maeb i can overcum my fear~~ aniwae..i CONFIRM FAIL my accounts test..cos onli did part a of qn 1..there's 3qn w alot parts..e part i did iz 7m..if i did tt correctly..at least i gt 7/50...haha! prepare 2 go retest bah~~ gaf up when i c qn 2 n 3...hai~~ haf 2 print sum previous yrs test paper 2 try le...goin mad!! lack of slp..lack of water..lack of luv..lack of eveliting!!!!!!!!!

juz nw watch chn 8..remind mi of grandma...hai~~ i reali need 2 gif myself a break if nt i definitely go jump sea w jessica! tink she 2dae v.stress n upset..cos of tt IDEA presentatn..tt teacher shoot them w alot alot qn til their grp nahtin sae...n he reali mk mi angry til i scolded cb..he oso mk siti v.angry...another cls oso feel tt he reali dun lyk our cls..all my clsmates asked mi if i'm ok after my grp presentatn cos they sae my face turn real black..they sae my face turn black when e teacher saed my slide b4 i finish presentin...i was presentin e 1st sentence of "mappin" n he saed sumtin bout wat i tokkin w my lungs..aiyah..watever lah..cant reali hear wat he sae..den i look at him..v.blur..tink eveli1 oso v.blur..all of us thot he wan mi speak louder..but its nt..he means tt wat i'm presentin iz obvious n iz wrong...arghh!! watever!! he saed wat i'm presentin iz nt bout mappin..den i juz stare at him..tink he saed sumtin n i replied," yah! its obvious mah!" den he tok again..i reali duno wats he's tokkin all e while lah! den i juz look at e com n he sudd sae," soli soli...nvm..continue.." v.shock tt "soli" iz in his dictionary..aniwae..i oready v.sian w him tt time so i juz anihw read thru another slide..after presentin, my frens saed my face turn v.black when tt teacher saed we were wrong..den they shock y i change attitude..i reali didnt noe til they told mi durin break time!! haha..told u all i v.fierce lookin le! last time asked my clsmates if i look fierce when i nt smilin..they sae," v.diffct 2 c u dun smile leh..lyk impossible 2 c u dun smile.." ahah! but i didnt smile tt much le..yiwen sae she seldom c mi smile nwadaes liao..n gaorui sae i look drained..zhihuang's frens sae i look old...arhh!!!!!! nwadaes i reali too stress n busy le..drivin mi crazy!!! even gt thots of dyin or cuttin myself..sadist eh?? hai!!!! hope all these wil end sooonnnn!!!

feel lyk dyin..stress!!!

omg..i reali hate IDEA!!! arghh!! reali reali hate tiz toopid module!! y muz haf tiz module??!! its mkin mi mad + stress + crazy + moody + tired + alot alot...was workin fine w my grp members..but its e proj tt's mkin all of us stress n mad!tiz proj reali reali affect my mood nw!! shitty IDEA proj! juz hope we can find solutn 2 our fish tank thing..n shut tt bias george's mouth hu dun lyk our grp! he's reali prejudice..tts wat others sae...nvm bout him..juz wanna gt over soon n dun care hw he tink! arghh! didnt reali feel tired in e mornin..but stil tried 2 close my eyes when i'm in econs tut cls..used my sweater 2 cover my head..dunno y..dun feel lyk lookin at e surroundin n felt moody~ den wendy kept disturbin mi..i didnt sae anithin or bother her..cos jessica n quant ruu r helpin mi by tellin her nt 2 disturb mi..i was reali damn moody at tt time n she disturb mi..but i dun wan do anithin..cos i dun wan hurt ani1 juz cos of my own moodiness..2dae was reali feelin moody..dun feel lyk tokkin 2 anibody...but stil tried 2 communicate w others n force myself 2 smile..i reali force myself..felt sickenin..den at e 2nd last lesson..quant ruu iz doin sum survey w e cls..n they were soooo damn xtremely noisy til i damn dulan! i saed they v.noisy n frown..wendy was sittin beside n tellin mi relax..daniel shock when he c mi so angry n irritated..he even asked her wat happen..keke..den i told him they v.noisy..hai..buay tahan in e end..i turn my head ard n saed 2 them, "can u all do e survey liao den tok?!!!" den all of them were lyk shock n didnt noe wat happen..at least they kept quiet 4 awhile..arghh..juz dun understd y they wan 2 tok so loudly when quant ruu iz readin out e survey thing..sumore they r tokkin bout other things..nt bout e survey..hai! gt a clsmate hu painted his nails black! arghh..n he's e 1 hu called mi bitch tt time...saw his nails yest n felt REAL DISGUSTED! told baba family 2 c n they felt disgusted too..den 2dae heard tt iz nt he paint de..iz other help him paint 1..aiyah..hu care~~ juz noe tt i wanted 2 paint my fingernails b4 him....but nw c him w e black nails i sian liao..dun tink wil paint 4 e time bein..sumore no time!!! hai.. last wk do my gems qn do til pek chek...den gt e thot of cuttin myself w e penknife in my pencil box..dunno wat happen 2 mi..i controled myself nt 2 cut cos dun wan 2 clean e blood tt wil flow out..creatin more troubles n probs 4 myself onli...but gt tiz "cuttin myself" thot these few daes..arghh!! wat happen 2 mi?!! i'm sadist n mad~ hai!! v.easy angry 2dae..tink i'm moody or watever~ juz nw both my sis return hm while i bloggin tiz..they DAMN NOISY..so i juz shout at them, tellin them 2 shut up..but they stil continued 2 mk LOUD NOISE..i felt v.irrtitated..i even told them dun force mi tk out a knife..n mum saed, " ni you bing arh?" well..i guess i reali sick n sadist liao~ hai..tml CRS test...omg..hw 2 pass tiz module?! another irritatin module! hai!! all these things mkin my mind xplodin..

e onli nice thing iz my papa iz reali sweet n carin~~ yest he went all e wae frm yishun 2 my sch(at dover) 2 fetch mi hm!! its a v.long journey frm yishun 2 my sch...its oready 8 at nite le..i doin tt IDEA proj til 7+..i called him askin if he can fetch mi..actuali onli askin..didnt noe he purposely cum all e wae 2 fetch mi hm..omg...he's reali sooo nice!!! luv my papa!!!!!!!~~~ my mum's so lucky 2 haf such a sweet husband..hoho..wil i meet sum1 lyk my papa?? hmm...guess i wun b so lucky bah.. *waitin 4 e dae 2 cum.........