tired n happi~

been too tired 2 blog these few daes..thot fri gt test..so thur nite tried 2 study but fell aslp..went sch lecturer sae no test..wil b held nxt fri instead..phew~ didnt study at all..haha..cos too tired..den fri went out w beina after sch..sch ended at 5..she waited mi til 5+ cos my cls discussin bout e grpin 4 MOB proj..so late release..wanted 2 go beach at 1st..den last min decide 2 go imm instead..cos by e time we reach e beach wil b 7+ le..so went imm..reached hm at 10pm..was too tired..so didnt blog..slp at 11 cos wil b doin IDEA proj e nxt dae (juz nw) mornin..1st time slp so earli..

wk up at 9am..meet quant ruu, jonathan n junda at city hall mrt n go esplanade lib..haha! 1st time go there..feel tt its q.nice place..can c e river~~ luv e scenery!! last time chee han told mi its q. a nice place..well..do agree nw~ went 2 marina bay mrt at 6+ 2 meet e rest of my clsmates w quant ruu n junda..jonathan didnt join us cos he saed v.sian n didnt wan 2 go..e moment i reached e mrt statn..jessica n wendy keep saein my legs sooo white! haha..cos i wearin a short shorts..keke..den they keep repeatin my legs v.white..aniwae had alot of fun while eatin e steamboat w them~~ enjoyed alot juz nw! reached hm at 12+am..manage 2 board e nel train..dunno izzit e last train..so tired nw~ hai..gttin more n more stress..alot alot proj cumin n there's 3 tests nxt wk..wed gt CRS test, fri gt IDEA presentan, QM n PACC tests..stress man~ sumore stil gt alot hw haven do..so tired nw! argh~~

pisces horoscope~

tiz iz wat i read in msn horoscope..under wellness..iz 4 2dae onli..

27 jan
The aspect of the day will quite possibly find you brooding about how to get a head start. For one thing, you cannot go wrong by paying attention to your body. If your mind is feeling foggy, don't let it stop you from getting out into the fresh air for an invigorating walk every day. If your heart is feeling blue, don't let that stop you from reaching out to people who care about you and asking for a big hug!

blog song~

tiz iz e song i put in my blog..iz by 孙燕姿...1st time listen e song didnt reali lyk..but slowly..luv tiz song liao~ haha..e melody abit lyk e music in golden horse award..abit onli..below iz e lyrics..lyk e lyrics too~ actuali lyk another song "我也很想他" too..but dun haf tiz song..

同类
曲：李偲菘 词：易家扬 编：Terence Teo

雨后的城市 寂寞又狼狈
路边的座位 它空着在等谁

我拉住时间 它却不理会
有没有别人 跟我一样很想被安慰

风 停了又吹 我忽然想起谁
天 亮了又黑 我过了好几岁
心 暖了又灰 世界 有时候孤单的很需要另一个同类

爱 收了又给 我们都不太完美
梦 作了又碎 我们有几次机会 去追
不晓得为甚么爱 又稀少又昂贵

云在半空中 被微风剪碎
回忆也许美 可是正在飞走对不对

mum dreamt of popo!!

felt better 2dae..didnt tink as much as last few daes..thou stil gt tink..but didnt cry le..maeb time wil reali heal e wound..mostly oso cos of all my frens ard mi~~ they r v.concern n worried bout mi..my baba family (quant ruu, jessica n wendy) cheered mi up alot in sch..c all my frens so nice 2 mi..i oso dun wan let them worry bout mi..wil try 2 cheer up..been listenin 2 classical music since yest..hmm..symphony i tink...v.v.nice~ luv classical music since young..maeb cos i learn 2 plae piano when i in pri..enjoyed all those classical music b4 i started listenin chi pop (influence by my jie)...wendy saed i dun look lyk sum1 hu wil listen classical music..n quant ruu agreed! haha! reali wor...hmm..looks do deceive ppl! cos wendy saed i look lyk sum1 hu wil read bks de..but i'm actuali nt if u noe mi well..keke!

wah..tired nw...cos reached hm at bout 6..den went 2 j8 w mum at 7+..cos i need buy present 4 jessica..tml's her bdae n i haven buy aniting! so mum pei mi go buy present..wanted 2 buy e cute thing tt use solar energy 2 work..so i go j8..but mum sae too ex..argh..nag til i look at other things..finaly bought her a massage machine..small n cute~ haha..dunno y i buy..maeb its useful bah..den went 2 walk ard 2 c if i can find anitin 4 wendy..her bdae on tiz fri..n i found~ haha! dun haf 2 worry wat 2 buy 4 her le..went hm at ard 9+..was v.surprise i didnt quarrel w mum when shoppin w her..tiz iz e 1st time i go out w her alone without quarrellin~ sumore we can stil chat nicely..2dae iz e 7th dae since popo passed awae..chat bout grandma..mum saed she dreamt of popo e nite after crematn tk place..e whole of family onli mum dreamt of popo..my auntie saed onli 1 person in e whole big family wil dream of popo..cos she read frm buddhist bk de..mum dreamt of popo appear in her dream after c-in 3 beams of ray..aniwae..e dream iz a gd thing..at least we noe popo iz nw restin in peace le..eveliting wil b fine! *hopefully*

feel sick nw..flu..sore throat..arghh..i hate havin sore throat..its reali v.sian..hai..eyes stil abit swollen..nt enuff slp..so i feel fat..shud use swollen 2 describe..haha! nt enuff water oso..sumore owaes stay in air con rm..hai..plus stress..plus alot probs...plus plus plus.......

hai..

thot nobody wil notice my hair bein trimmed..but e moment jessica saw mi..she saed i cut hair! arghh..its so obvious!! arhhhh...kind of obvious i guess..cos i can feel tt my hair shorter n e ends iz nt layered..c those pantene advertisement b4?? those ppl in e pantene advertisement haf no layered hair..their ends v.straight de..aiyah..duno hw 2 sae lah! wendy saed its nicer but e hair ends reali mk mi felt weird..feel lyk a nerdy nerdy person actin guai n cute..eeekkks! hmm..maeb cut my fringe til eyebrow even more farni..haha! even more guai n nerdy~ suits my specs hor..hmm...considerin....

nahtin much happen in sch..juz tt e whole dae i stil q.sad..parents went 2 collect grandma's ashes in e mornin..wanted 2 go..but they saed i cant mk it on time even if i pon cls..sumore i dunno e place..so i sian liao..hai..siti can c tt i look v.sad..she saed usuali i at most look moody but 2dae i look v.sad...den i ask gt diff meh..n she saed yes..hai..was holdin back my tears in my 1st tutorial..cos thot of grandma in e coffin..bein pushed 2 a small area 4 crematn n door closed..heartache again..eyes swollen..panda eyes..eye bags..all appear on my face..yiwen asked if she bcum taller or i bcum shorter..of cos iz i bcum shorter lah..nt enuff slp + stress + sad + loss of water(tears mah)...den she saed nt enuff slp wil bcum fatter..n i told her i do look more fat..but in tutorial cls wendy sudd saed i look thinner..but dun tink i gt ani thinner bah..mum more jia lart..juz nw saw my mum walkin 2wards mi..her legs r soooo thin..her legs oready thinner den mine..nw even worser! she looks alot thinner...hai...both mum n mei r havin flu..mei iz cos yest e joss sticks mk her sneeze n eyes uncomfortable..mum iz 2dae den flu de..hai..hope they wil b fine soon! reali hope my sis n parents r ok...dun wan c them sad..cos it mks mi worry n feel lyk cryin..mi owaes blog til wanna cry..arghh!! scared wil sudd cried on train or in sch..den strangers wil tink i crazy n frens wil worry..hai..i muz control my tears!!!!!!!

i wan go beach!! feel soooo damn stressed n sad!! my mind xplodin!! arghh...but hu wil go w mi..i need sumting/sum1 2 mk mi stp tinkin all these...owaes thot of e funeral n crematn part whenever i'm alone or nt tokkin..tink i reali mad le..cos reached hm at 2+ n i didnt go slp..instead i stand at my window n fa dai..den i started 2 pack my table n tk a wet cloth 2 wipe it..cos its v.dusty..dunno y i did all these things..maeb i reali too stress or wat..dun wan 2 tink..so went 2 clean table..reali surprise myself doin tiz..n i stil haven do ani of my hw..sian!

didnt blog yest cos by e time i reached hm..its bout 1am le..sumore haf 2 slp earli so tt 2dae can wk up earli n sent my grandma off...so goin 2 blog what happen yest n 2dae...

22 jan
hmm..nt v.busy in e funeral..but mostly stil r my papa's frens, colleagues n students attendin my grandma's funeral..n omost all his frens gaf $50 or $100 4 e white gold (bai jin)..all so generous..tink his students gaf as a grp when they cum..he gt so mani students n frens n colleagues..even more uncle's wife oso shock..well..but appreciated tt they cum 2 pay respect 2 grandma..oh yah..gaorui n siva oso cum 2 e funeral..reali appreciated their kindness! at 1st siva stand outside e rm waitin..cos he paiseh 2 cum in..den i told him iz ok..so he cum in pay respect 2 my grandma oso..reali nice of them..chatted w them 4 awhile..tink siva msgin her bah..cos he saed she sent regards 2 mi..thanks kj! they went 2 meet kj after cumin over..aniwae reali reali reali appreciated them 4 cumin~~ thanks leh!!

23 jan
reached s'pore casket at 7+am n saw ah gong(mama's dad) walkin 2 tk e lift..reali nice of him 2 cum cos he actuali in thailand..he purposely cum back earlier 2 pay respect 2 my grandma(papa's mum)..so nice of him..when we inside e rm..evelibody iz waitin 4 e shi fu 2 cum..he was late..cos he suppose 2 cum at 8..but he 8+ den reached..evelibody wear white sock when he cum..cos he told us 2 wear..den he started chantin n soon we walk ard grandma's coffin again..thot wil haf ppl cry...but evelibody controlled e tears..after all e chantin..he told us 2 go over 2 sae gd things 2 grandma..den touch e coffin n go..tiz iz e time where ppl cried...b4 mi was my mum..she cried til v.jialart..i was holdin back my tears but i c her cry i oso heartache liao..tears flowed down..when evelibody touched e coffin..we walked back 2 e front n kneeled b4 e table n coffin..e shi fu saed they r goin 2 cover e coffin le..so we haf 2 look down..cannt look at e coverin of coffin..tiz iz e time i kept cryin..tiz iz e time i reali damn sad..even thou grandma n mi mae nt seem close..but i rem once she helped 2 push mi n mei when we plaein e swing when i'm in pri sch..tt time she stil q.healty..but she owaes nt in gd health..my god..reali damn sad..den i kept cryin when i look down..reali cant control..cos picturin grandma helpin 2 push my mei n my swing last time..tink onli once..but i stil can rem..hai..nw recallin wat happen in e mornin mk mi cry again..but papa n jie sittin behind mi..haf 2 control nt 2 let my tears flow down..cannt let my papa c..argh!! ok le..den after closin e coffin..e coffin was placed in a van..papa n a few relatives followed grandma's coffin while e rest of us tk e lift 2 meet them downstairs..den all of us followed e van behind..sum of us includin mi put our hands at e back of e van..cos mum told mi put my hand on e van 2 send grandma off..but nt evelibody put..cos nt enuff space..den we walk 2 e main road b4 e van stp..den all of us board a bus while e eldest son of grandma board e van..we were goin 2 c e crematn..reached e place n e shi fu chant again..offered joss stick 4 e last time..n went 2 a rm 2 c e crematn..when e coffin was movin 2wards e place..my auntie(papa's mei) cried out..omg..i was tryin 2 control my tears but when i c n hear her cry...i juz cant control myself le...evelibody started cryin again..n when e coffin moved in2 e place..e door closed n evelibody was so damn sad..cant c popo again le!!!!!!!!! omg...reali so sad!! i reali dunno hw 2 sae..hai..evelibody board e bus n went 2 temple after tiz 2 do sum kneelin n prayin..dunno hw 2 write out..so dun wan sae le..board e bus after eveliting done n e driver drove us back 2 s'pore casket..den ah gong went off alone..felt bad tt we cant drove him 2 e place he wan go..e rest of us went 2 lavender food court eat our lunch..eveli1 looks fine le..can chat n joke ard..hope evelithing's fine 4 them~ reali hope my papa's ok..tink frm nw start i haf 2 b careful of wat i sae in front of my papa..he looks ok n strong in front of us..cos he joke ard w us as usual..scared he cannt tk it when we were c-in e crematn...reali afraid he might collapse...but i believe he wil b strong..heard frm auntie tt last time his dad( my granddad) passed awae..he's juz a teenager of my age..den evelidae after sch he kneeled in front of granddad's pic n cried til v.jia lart...she saed my papa iz e most emotional 1...well..maeb cos papa didnt reali study cos he too focus in plaein erhu..den papa felt sad bah..hai..hear liao so heartache man! arghhh!! so sad!!!

went hm n mum helped evelibody cut hair..cos ah ma (mum's mother) told her we haf 2 cut hair after eveliting's done..juz cut abit wil do..jie cut her own hair..tinkin tt wil b fine..haha! in e end mum saed haf 2 at least cut ard..nt a few hair..my hair abit shorter nw but dun tink can c ani diff bah..onli tt e end of my hair nt tt layered le..yucks..my hair's end nt layered..muz b q.farni..but nvm..ppl wun notice de..cos mum didnt cut so much..wah...i blog so long le..haf 2 stp..hungry le..goin 2 eat my dinner nw..hai..but c my papa slpin on e sofa behind mi i no appetite..cos he looks so sad n tired...hai~~~~

juz reached hm frm s'pore casket..2dae cum hm earlier cos i wanted 2 go back early in e mornin..bout 5..sumore i sudd havin flu n i omost die of sneezin!! dunno hu's cursin mi..haha! den my mei sae iz sum1 tinkin bout mi..hmm..reali?? aniwae..received elise's msg in e afternn when i burnin joss papers (i burn eveli hr)...reali sweet of her cos she actuali wanted 2 cum w her parents (my papa noe her parents cos last time they r colleagues)..den she didnt noe tt they cumin in e afternn..so in e end nv cum..b4 i received her msg..i saw her parents when i burnin e joss papers....so my jie..cousins n mi kneel down beside e table where e joss sticks r placed..2 thanks them 4 showin respect 2 my grandma..juz sumtin u can c on tv..they stil can recognise mi cos when they saw mi kneelin...they look n smile at mi..after tt continue 2 burn joss papers..2dae q.alot ppl cum..but tink yest more bah..nt sure oso..juz noe tt mi kneel til my legs r pain..cos when i burnin joss papers i oso kneelin..cos of e ht we burn e joss papers..its lyk a big hole on e wall..so we haf 2 kneel..when aunty n uncle leavin..they oso sae bye bye 2 mi..reali nice of them~

started 2 sneeze in e nite..maeb cos of e joss papers bah..or ppl cursin mi..received guocheng's msg askin if i'm ok..told him i'm ok n thanks him 4 showin concern..tellin mi nt 2 b sad n asked hw old my grandma was..where e funeral held..when izzit until..stil can celebrate cny nt..hehe..thanks arh! reali reali reali appreciate all e concerns frm my frens!! they r reali nice 2 mi..i'm ok..dun worry frens! as usual nw..can luff n chat..juz tt i guess on sun earli mornin when grandma chu bin..i'l cry again..maeb sat nite oso..ohh..which iz tml nite..hmm..cos mum sae gt 3 shi fu cumin over 2 chant prayer..when they chantin i guess my relatives wil start cryin again..c-in they cry i oso wil cry liao..if i c my papa sad i even more sad...hai..when he stand at e side of e table whenever his frens prayin in front of e table..i can c he felt sad..cos i kneelin opp him mah..can c clearly tt he sad..juz tt he didnt cry out..can feel he's reali sad..oh no..goin 2 cry again when i thot tiz..he's tired..these few daes keep tokkin 2 his frens 4 whole dae..cos his frens cum continuously..he dun haf time 2 rest at all..2dae afternn stil ok..so he went 2 tk a look at grandma..he stood near e coffin 4 a few min...when i saw tt..i felt heartache n omost cried..luckily i tokkin 2 my jie while foldin joss papers..nw thot of him standin near e coffin lookin at grandma quietly..omg..tears inside e eyes again..controllin nt 2 let them flow down..argh..haf 2 go bath n slp earli..if nt later cant wk up n help papa..later gona b a busy dae..perhaps haf 2 stae overnite cos grandma wil b leavin us at 8+am on sun..haf 2 prepare..so hope i can stae overnite til sun mornin..cos scared i cant wk up on time..dun wan let parents worry n angry..

juz returned hm frm s'pore casket w both my sis..cum hm 2 bath so later can go back there 2 star overnite 2 help tk care of e joss stick..cos haf 2 let it burn continuously..my parents stil there tokkin w sum ppl..so i wan 2 cum back bath liao den return there 2 tk turn tk care of e joss stick..reali dun wan my parents 2 tire themselves..reali wanted 2 help as much as i can..

reached there at bout 1..cos grandma's body will b sent there ard tt time..den e shi fu started 2 chant..evelibody stand behind n tk a joss stick each..soon he walk ard e coffin n we followed..tiz was e time where eveli 1 start 2 cry..i tried 2 control myself cos i dun wan let grandma c us sad..but i stil cant control..its reali hard when u c others cryin so sad n my parents w red eyes..i noe i'll surely cry so brought tissue paper n put in my pocket..hai..walk 4 3 rounds n stand behind e shi fu again..soon its over..n we start 2 help out lyk e arrangin of peanuts on e table n alot more things..both my sis n mi kneel down near e coffin whenever ppl cum 2 tk e joss stick 2 pray..cos our elders told us 2 do so..our cousins didnt do tt cos i tink sum r christians n they cant do all these stuff..so e whole dae both my sis mi were busy foldin joss papers..kneelin down..preparin peanuts n drinks..so on.. most ppl hu cum r my papa's frens..my papa's frens reali alot..den his frens n e schs he taught oso sent wreath over..outside e rm gt alot wreath.mostly frm papa's frens..reali appreciated all their concerns..my auntie n her husband oso cum over (my mum's sis)...reali nice of them~~
wanted 2 go back there 2 stae overnite after bathin..but papa iz worried bout my jie n my safety..we plannin 2 go back stae overnite cos nobody iz stayin overnite 2 look after e joss stick..we dun mind stayin overnite..den papa told us iz q.unsafe cos there's alot ah nehs ard n e rm has no lock..after hearin tiz we oso abit worried..but hu care..if e ah nehs reali provoke us..dun tink they wil rest in peace..well..gtg bath n tink hw 2 arrange e time...
oh yah..e previous post i juz blog cos yest com gt prob..e blog dun allow mi 2 post..luckily i save a copy of wat i type..so i juz copy n paste juz nw..
btw, thanks alot...my frens~~ reali appreciate~~ i'm ok..dun worry!

later goin 2 help out in grandma's funeral..scared later i cry again..den eyes even more swollen..slp in e afternn..but nw stil abit tired..maeb cos i cried yest..hai..owaes gt headache e nxt dae i cried..nw abit sore throat..didnt drink enuff water i guess..cos i onli drink a bottle of water evelidae..nw shud drink more cos used up alot water..cryin mk mi lose more water bah..hmm..reali hope i wun cry later..when i slpin in e afternn after sch..mum called mi at 6+ askin whether both my sis reached hm liao nt..den i shock..cos i thot i slp 4 1 dae n need go sch liao..den asked mum wats e dae n she told mi iz wed..hai..thot iz thur liao..after hangin e phone i stil blur blur..continue 2 slp cos used alot energy..hai..v.worried bout my parents..they didnt slp 4 whole dae le..since yest 2+am til juz nw 1+am den slp..its reali tirin 4 them..reali hope i can help them....gona go slp if nt they wil nag mi n worry tt i wun haf enuff energy later..change my blog music again..lyk tiz song alot..especiali nw..suits my mood..its by 王杰 "為了愛夢一生"~

treasure ppl ard u..pls..

nw in sch com lab..havin itab cls..reali no mood 2 listen 2 tt lkk..tried 2 listen but nahtin can go in..eyes swollen nw..cos slp at bout 1+..den wk up by phone call at 2.44..thot i was dreamin of phone ringin..but its nt..den i heard my jie wkin up my parents n told them uncle called them..bout sum urgent matter..which iz my grandma iz in critical condition in e hospital..den we all went 2 hospital..at 1st papa dun wan we(both my sis n mi) go..cos car nt enuff space as he haf 2 drive my other relatives..den i insist i wan go..so he drive mi there..both my sis tk taxi without lettin them noe..reached e hospital carpark..asked my papa hw's grandma..he saed she passed awae le..omg..i stun there..den we quickly rushed 2 e ward..heard my auntie cryin when we r near e ward..den i gt scared..dunno wats happenin...when i saw grandma lyin on e bed..i juz cried..den soon my sis reached too..hai..dun wan tok bout it le..onli noe tt my grandma died peacefully..tts wat my auntie told us..hai..den uncle drive us hm while my parents stayed there..reached hm at bout 5+...den i slp 4 1/2h..den cooked meepok eat liao cum sch..was late 4 bout 10min..den e lkk haven even reach! argh..den i cried again when jessica asked mi y i look so sian..hai..sian~ tts y nw eyes swollen..tink my clsmate saw mi cryin n she shocked..arhh..dun bother le..omost marked absent cos when e lkk markin attendance..i was dryin my tears..didnt notice he called my name..quant ruu reminded mi n told lkk i here..keke..she's reali nice..juz hold my hands n asked mi m i ok..reali sweet..thanks! aniwae..juz feel tt i shud treasure n cherish my frens n relatives eveli moment!! we shud do watever we wan n go 4 it b4 its too late..reali..juz do watever u wan so tt u wun regret!

its over!

finaly!! mob test iz over!! omg..yest didnt reali slp cos tryin 2 study mob..but stil cant finish studyin..luckily there's a 4h break b4 test start..so stil can pia...last sec finish readin..went in e lec hall 4 test..n its over finaly!! cos of tiz toopid test i felt so stress!! argh! tink i goin 2 fail aniwae..haha! luckily there's a retest 4 tiz mob..if nt tink i die le~ felt so relieved after e test thou i noe i failin..haha!! yeahyeah!! muz go out relax le~ tml after sch goin 2 eat dinner w beina n maeb walk ard n rot again~~ dunno where we'll b goin leh..maeb imm again..haha!! go where?? later we goin 2 stuck at e mrt statn n stand in front of e board 2 c where we wanna go..haha! miss those daes we rottin in front of e directory~ keke! so busy n stressful nwadaes..eveliting juz keep cumin n nv stp..hope tml..ehh..actuali iz later lah...wil enjoy our dinner~ yeah~~ ohh..haven do my econs n mob tut..sian~~

izzit true??

juz received his msg..n i reali dunno if i'm e 1 4 him or shud i sae he's e 1 4 mi?? i reali dunno~~ been tinkin these few daes actuali..reali dunno if i suit him nt..i'm afraid of hurtin ppl..afraid he regret...hai..dunno wat i'm saein le...saw tiz quote in my sch while waitin 4 e lift.."all our dreams come true..if we have the courage to pursue them"....tink iz frm walt disney...hmm..izzit true?? do my dreams reali cum true if i pursue them?? n iz there reali fairytale in tiz world nwadaes?? thou i believe n hope there's reali fairytale in tiz world..i nv tink wil ever happen 2 mi~ dunno y..juz a feelin...aniwae change my blog song 2 eason's canto song "明年今日".....chi version iz "十年"...tink most ppl listen b4 bah...luv tiz song~ v.nice!

m i mad?

wk up at 1+..q.surprise tt i wk up tiz earli cos i slp at 5am..usuali i'll slp 4 bout 12h b4 i wk up durin wkends..but i cant slp so i wk up..stand at e window n stare outside while listenin 2 songs..den mum forced mi eat lunch cos i dun wan eat rice..wanted 2 jian fei mah..hai..but stil ate..saw mayday's mv on chn51..its frm their newest album n i luv tt song e 1st time i listen n i saw its mv 2dae!!! luv e melody alot..its written by guanyou n ashin; lyrics written by ashin~~ 1st time hear e song oready feel sad..den 2dae i watch e mv til i cried!!! arhhaa!! cant believe it myself!! my tears juz rolled down b4 i can react..n i quickly wipe off cos my mum was sittin near mi..luckily she tokkin on phone..if she saw i sudd cry she sure paranoid man! aniwae e song title iz 超人~~ so happi 2 c tiz mv!! straight after mayday's mv iz leehom's mv..its frm his newest album too..e song title "forever love"..its a chi song..n heard its written 4 his ex gf hu's goin 2 gt married tiz yr..n i luv e chorus part of tiz song!!

haha..tink i goin mad..cos i found a v.small cut near my left eye n i didnt even noe hw i cut de..oso found small cuts on my finger, hand n knee..reali dunno when n hw i cut myself de~ omg..m i mad?? hw cum i didnt even noe i cut myself..didnt feel ani pain oso..oh no..m i bcumin alien?? e injuries on my small thigh haven recover..hope wil gt better b4 chi new yr..if nt wear skirt or shorts v.ugly..as if i'm abused..hai..2dae finaly c e pic taken durin my cousin's weddin dinner..its lyk happen in nov..nw den c e pic..n my face iz reali big n fat! oso feel tt my arms v.fat after lookin at e pic i tk!! argh!! muz reali reali jian fei le!!!! wil upload e pic when i free~

walkin zombie...

juz wk up after slpin since 6+pm....my god..i didnt wk up 2 eat dinner...usuali mi 6+ slp..wil wk up at 8 or at most 9..cos wan watch tv..but i wk up at 9.50..so i continue 2 slp cos e show iz over soon..slp til 12 den wk up..cos i need send jessica's sum files..luckily she msg mi..if nt i guess i'll slp til e nxt dae~ goin 2 bath soon after i blog n send finish her e files..

2dae mornin go sch reali feel damn tired..luckily papa drive mi there...if nt i tink i'll juz faint in e train~ reach sch liao felt tt my eyes abit swollen..tink i nt enuff slp..cos didnt tk a nap yest..den oso slp late..1st lesson in e mornin iz e idea presentatn..was imaginin i faint half wae i present n fell aslp..haha!! den 1 of my grp member, jun da, didnt cum..so we quickly re-shuffle e part we saein so can cover up his part of presentatn..whew~ its over..but dun tink 1 of e tutors lyk our product bah..basically cos v.rush of time when presentin..cos lesson endin soon n we r e 2nd last grp..grps b4 us tk up alot time..so last few grps haf 2 rush..but its over!

2dae these 8h reali mk mi feel lyk a zombie..i was practicalli slpin cos my brain iz nt workin at all..eyes reali feel heavy n stressed..n i keep tinkin i need 2 slp e moment i reach hm..so e time passed q.fast..slp in gems cls til fren wk mi up 2 copy those ans 4 tut..so tired!!! scared i shout when i dream..haha!! cos mi owaes jiang meng hua aloud de..so great tt 2dae had ended~ feel better after tkin a nap juz nw..oh yah..heard frm quant ruu tt onli 12 ppl frm yr 1-3 can go e japan thing..haha! so pathetic..thot sp reali tt gd subsidise alot alot ppl go~ chey..dun tink bout it le..dun wan 2 compete w ppl juz 2 go tt japan thing..

hu cursin mi? head xplodin!

didnt blog yest..cos too sian n wan watch tv..wanted 2 try e feelin nt goin online..maeb i too tired le..tokkin rubbish here...

wk up at 8..den when i was eatin my breakfast half wae...i start sneezin..n i cant stp..i continued 2 sneeze 4 bout 10times b4 another round of sneezin soon after i stp..haha~ izzit alot ppl cursin mi? haha! cos dun tink ani1 wil tink bout mi..so shud b curse lor..aniwae 2dae in sch reali v.tired..cos eyes feel lyk closin after sneezin 4 so mani times..hai..fell aslp eveli nw n den in lec n even tutorial..sian~

stil gt 2 econs n 1 mob tutorial haven do..tml need go thru..den tml stil gt 2 presentatn!! e worst thing iz tml there's no break frm 9-5!!! cos there's an econs mk up lesson..n iz arrange durin break time..so tml i haf 2 attend cls 4 8h without ani break..if at least gt 1 lec stil ok..but these 8h all r tut........omg!! tink i gonna b DEAD tml..oh no!!!! 4 tut..8h...stil muz walk down n up hill 4 cls...ARGHH!! these few daes feel sooo troubled..dunno y oso..hai..feel tt i need mk alot plans n decisions recently..e sch iz askin us whether we wan go japan..I WAN!! den yest jie told mi nt 2 go japan or korea..cos a v.famous person analyse tt sumting wil happen in japan n korea tiz yr..mayb a big earthquake..2dae fren oso sae tiz yr iz nt v.smooth 4 ppl born in rabbit...y muz all these happen when i'm given a choice 2 go japan?!??!! we onli need pay $500 each 4 e trip cos sch subsidize $1500 each~~~ i reali feel lyk goin!! but i dun wan c sumting lyk tsunami happen when we r in japan enjoyin..i dun mind if i die..but i dun wan c my frens die or suffer b4 mi..argh!! HEARTACHE nw..better dun tink le..but i haf 2 decide if i goin japan..by tml need an ans...ARRHHHHHHHH!!!!

fly away~

hai..feelin so moody nw..dunno y...tink i abit siao 2dae..didnt slp in e evenin..usuali i slp in e evenin after reachin hm frm sch..lie on e sofa in e evenin but i cant gt 2 slp! omg..its serious if i cant gt in2 slp..haha!! cos i'm such a pig..owaes feel slpy in e afternn but 2dae..i dun feel slpy at all..perhaps i wk up late 2dae..cos 2dae 1st 2h of cls tutor nv cum..so no need go sch..den i pon e nxt hr lesson..so reach sch at 1..hai..durin all those lec n tutorials..i was lyk openin my eyes wide...cant believe it..i can actuali open eyes 4 whole dae?? hai~ sumting happen 2 mi?!! goin mad bah..feel lyk flyin away 2 sum quiet place where there's no trouble n irritatin stuff~~~ argh..feel so sian..was doin research on my CRS project n i cant find aniting reali related 2 e topic..den asked yvonne help mi print..feel so bad..cos i didnt noe there's 9pg!! soli n thanks yvonne!!~ hai..feel lyk shoutin nw..but dun feel lyk tokkin.....reali wan 2 go sum quiet place n cool down..hai!! feel lyk endin my life earlier man...i'm reali so bored!!! e more i tink, e more sian i gt!! e more sian i gt, e more i tink.................
我好想好想飞 逃离这个疯狂世

nitemare again~ haha!

2dae in sch so bored...went hm after doin IDEA project..sit on my table n stare at my MOB tut..arghh..so sickenin...reali dun wan do..so went 2 slp on sofa..den wk up by mum cos she wan mi go my rm slp..so i continue 2 slp in my rm..start 2 dream again...bad dream~~ dreamt tt my hp iz w a fren..den when i tk back..e back of hp iz DENTED!! arrhh!!! i screamed n shouted at tt ger..haha!! scream n scold til no voice..omg...itz reali scary c-in my hp out of shape n dented...i oso dream of quant ruu n jessica goin CYA..haha!! abit 4gt tiz part le..onli rem e dented hp part...argh...reali heartache c-in my hp dented!!!! so scary~~ hai..tink i goin mad liao..owaes dream weird things...dunno izzit sub-conscious stressfulness..yest read my horoscope frm e chi newspaper...it saes i'm goin 2 feel stress tiz wk..n its reali q.true!! cos 2dae went sch n lecturers told us e date of CAs..gt tests cumin..hai..nxt wk gt MOB test..4th feb gt PACC test..tiz few daes sure gt sumore lecturers tellin us e other dates of other CAs...omg..dun tink i can pass man...i reali dunno wat they teachin especiali tiz sem..hai!!!

tink e best thing i c 2dae iz an old couple holdin hands~ was tkin e train hm w quant ruu n den we saw tiz v.old couple holdin hands..so xing fu rite? owaes feel happi 2 c old couples holdin hands...den we were chattin tt tiz onli happen 2 generatn b4 us..nwadaes where gt couples wil stil b as sweet n nice when they aged?? hai~~~ reali sweet 2 c old couples 2gether..stollin in e park or beach~~ oh well..i'm dreamin again............................hope i nv wk up frm tiz kind of dream!

gloomy dae~

yest kee chun sent mi alot songs which i reali enjoyed~ haha! those guitar solos r reali v.nice..guess i'll listen evelidae..haha! thanks alot arh!~

had a few sweet dreams 2dae..haha!! finaly!~~ so long nv haf sweet dreams le lor..den feel q.happi when wk up even thou iz wk up by mum..but i dun mind~ wk up n quickly wrapped elise's present..cos wanted 2 gif her 2dae..gaf her e present after finishin my lunch..den papa drive us (mum, jie n mi) 2 grandma's hse...went 2 visit her...when i saw her..i felt heartbroken..cos she was lyin on bed..n her arms n legs r soooo thin!! so skinny lor..tt time c her stil nt so thin...nw...reali reali reali v.skinny....there r cuts on her wrists oso cos e chair beside her bed gt a part w sharp edges..den when she rest her hand on e chair..she gt cut..hai..feel so upset..hope she wil shen ti jian kang...

mi owaes feel sad soon after sumting happi happen 2 mi..after havin sweet dream yest..mi feel sad c-in my grandma..den my toe gt step by mum's heel..heard e big bell ringin at 6 for tsunami..watch e charity at chn u juz nw...wah...feel heavy hearted after watchin e charity show~~ e finale song they all sang iz andy's song!!! haha!! which iz "幸福 这么远 那么甜"...v.surprise 2 hear tiz song..e melody n lyrics all r written by andy himself~~ a v.meaningful song...

<<幸福 这么远 那么甜>>

命运是不能改变 又何必再留恋
你慢慢用心去领会 会找到最深的体验
淡淡的生活里面 隐藏着多少痛的危险
别让一天好像过了一年
如果你 有点疲倦 请把双手轻轻搁在我的胸前
那份爱 一闪电 深深穿过你指尖 去温暖你的心田
一双眼 能看世界的表面 却永远看不见
人生的另一边 绽放着一道美丽的光线
一颗心代替一双眼 世界变得真一点
只要相信自己 有爱就有明天
虽然幸福这么远 但那么甜

muz jian fei!!!

went out w beina n peiru 2dae~ was tinkin whether 2 go out w them yest..cos q.sian n tired..no mood 2 shop..haha! but stil went..den i meet peiru at srg mrt..but i late..so paiseh!! haha! went 2 bugis n meet beina..rot ard 4 awhile n went orchard...den rainin so cant go far east..so went tampiness mall..haha! tink we spent most time travelin here n there..keke...planned 2 shop 4 chi new yr clothes 2dae..den in e end mi n peiru bought nahtin..beina at least bought a skirt at 77th street~ mi wanted 2 buy e skirt i tried at 77th street..but i look FAT in tt skirt man! argh..tink i cannt wear skirt..looks xtremely fat!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!!!! so sad man!! muz reali go jian fei le~~ new yr cumin..haf 2 buy clothes..so haf 2 jian fei!! haha!

ate dinner at tm fc..den there's 2 ppl sittin beside us..1 guy n 1 woman...tt guy keep lookin at mi n smile at tt woman..den they usin hand signals 2 communicate..den he juz keep lookin at mi n start 2 communicate w tt woman again n grin! wah piang..cant stand it man! i was lyk juz stare him back..he juz stare at mi n look at tt woman n grin again!!! ARGH!! told peiru n beina bout it..peiru oso agreed tt e guy iz starin at mi n "tokkin" 2 tt woman..cos e woman oso lookin at them n "tok" 2 e guy..thou we duno wat they tokkin..itz obvious tt they tokkin bout mi lor...cos of my black fingernails izzit?! hw i wish i noe hand signals at tt moment..den i'll juz use hand signals n tell them 2 shutup...cos tt guy thot we dunno wat they tokkin bout so he v.hao lian..wah piang...argh!

feel bad tt cant meet yinru juz nw 2 do pacc..cos she msg mi in e afternn askin if i wan do pacc 2nite...but i dunno wat time i'll shop til w them..so i told her nt 2 wait 4 mi le..we'll do other dae perhaps..soli!!~

tired dae!!

2dae iz a tired dae man...sian..2dae timetable iz 9-5....tirin leh!! actuali 11-3 iz break time...but gt a mk-up lesson frm 11-12...den frm tiz sem start...there'll b an xtra course call gems..n iz frm 1-3 eveli fri...hai....den haf 2 rush down hill 4 e gems...n durin e gems cls..i slp 4 most of e time..cos e tutor oso dun care..i slp e moment i reach e cls man..den juz nice wk up he mark attendance..wah..if i didnt wk up tink he wun noe i here le..sian~

went 2 fc5 w beina after sch cos she need meet sum1 there..in e end we walked off cos e woman was tokkin 2 another guy..we waited til dun wan wait le..cos meetin peiru later on..so dun wan care bout tt woman..so i told beina 2 go..lucky we didnt wait 4 her..if nt we haf 2 wait 4 more den 1h bah..toopid leh...mk us wait 4 1/2h n nv c beina's sms! so i juz told her dun bother tt woman n we shud go..so we went 2 compass pt n wait 4 peiru..while waitin we r hungry..so bought food frm old chang kee..den bought mr softee in 7-11 cos compass pt's 7-11 sold it cheaper den aniwhere else..1 for $1 n sumore iz u mk urself de!~ haha..so fun~ went 2 walk ard b4 peiru reach at bout 8.30 w peiyu n melissa~ den she gaf beina n mi a soft toy she bought in taiwan..haha! so cute lor!!! went 2 kfc eat n durin tt time she even gaf them a name..beina gt a yellow chick named "dan huang"= egg yolk...n i gt a pink pig named "dan bing"= egg ice or egg pink..haha!! cute sia~ THANKS PEIRU!!~~~ goin out w her n beina tml again..need go look 4 chi new yr clothes..hope can find!~

borin dae~

2dae in sch so borin..gt a spss test at 11..went hm at 3..found a place 2 sit on e train...but e space iz so small cos beside mi r 2 guys..argh..den both were slpin i tink..1 of them was a ah neh..he was slpin sooo soundly tt his shoulder keep leanin 2wards mi..so scared his head wil rest on shoulder man...yeeee....but luckily his head didnt rest on mine..juz tt his head keep bangin e glass window behind him..so farni!! i can even hear e sound when his head bang on2 e glass despite listenin 2 mayday's cd lor..omost burst out luffin man..so bad of mi rite? wahhaha!!! didnt reali dare 2 rest on e train..cos scared he reali rest on my shoulder..haha!! fianly reached outram n when i stand up i omost fell..so embarrassin..haha! cos e train stp..den on e nel train i fell aslp..reali iz fell aslp..haha~ when i open eyes reach srg...juz nice~ haah! when i was tkin e escalator up..i saw 2 guys walkin down usin e stairs beside e escalator..1 of them looks yandao..felt tt he looks lyk my fren..den i saw another guy behind them..he's frm zhss last time..so i look back 2 e yandao guy..omg..he's reali my fren??!! aik tat?!!! muahhaha!!!! tink i haven wk up..tts y abit blur..but stil i recognise him in e end..haha..didnt call him cos he rushin 4 e train w his frens..but reali iz him?? haha!! oh my...til nw i stil abit blur..haha~

wanted 2 do MOB when i reached hm..but i juz stare at e paper n listen 2 songs..den decided 2 slp 4 awhile..b4 i wk up by mum..i gt a nitemare..which i nv thot b4! i dream of my mum allowin my mei 2 throw shit on mi!!! omg!!! wth..hw cum i dream tiz kind of thing?? i cant believe tt i actuali dream of tiz toopid thing!! in e nitemare: when i noe my mum allowed my mei 2 do tiz 2 mi..i v.depressed..i went 2 her n ssn tt i wun help her do tiz do tt animore when she's hangin those wet clothes..ssn til i gttin more n more depress..n she didnt even bother mi~ feel so depress den mum wk mi frm my nitemare~ felt tt i was in coma b4 she wk mi up..den when i "regain conscious" my tears juz flow out b4 i noe aniting..haha!! wat happen man?!! these few daes abit weird leh..tink i shud go lock myself in *hougang chalet* man!!!!! scared later 1 dae i'll hurt sum1 w my words or knife or watever...hahaha!! ppl...bcareful~~

gt well soon jessica!~ blur dae~~

ohh..2dae went sch..didnt c jessica..cos she sick~ hope she recover soon n wil join us again tml~ she missed lkk n sissy guy's lesson 2dae..ohh..miss all e farni things sissy guy did...hahaha!! 2dae in sch nt so tirin..dunno y~ maeb cos receive his msg in e mornin?? wahah!!! on e wae 2 sch saw mr koh n didnt greet him..den didnt feel reali gd in sch..den saw his msg..brightens my dae?? aiyah! dun wan 2 tink le lah..juz gt e feelin tt these wun last long~~ dun wan gif myself too much hope..if nt disappointment wil b greater...wat m i tokkin bout?!! tink i abit blur nw..cos after sch met yinru as she wan pass mi e spss cd n sum worksheets..after tt went 2 yishun 2 pass jessica e spss cd..was tinkin wan 2 visit him nt..cos i passin by somerset (he workin near there)..but didnt go cos scared disturb him..so went 2 dhoby ghaut wait 4 gaorui cos he returnin mi $..so busy travellin 2dae...haha! waited at e train statn 4 bout 1h b4 gaorui finali reached..mi was hungry n cold when waitin him lor..hungry til stomach growl v.loud (as usual lah..)..dunno gt ppl hear nt..haha! was nt cold at 1st..but wait n wait til hands feelin cold..den he pei mi go ps eat..cos i v.hungry!!~~ so i treated him eat..den went hm le~

4gt tt i need 2 install spss thing...haah! onli rem wan send files 2 jessica until she told mi bout e spss thing..c lah! y i so blur??!! argh..so i quickly go slp after settlin e spss thing..b4 i slp i even change my hp msg tone 2 those v.loud kind so tt i can hear e msg...den when slpin i heard msg...but didnt react 2 e msg cos i nt use 2 e tone bah..so 4gt iz actuali my hp msg tone...so toopid rite!! sumore cant wk myself up 2 reply those msg..argh..den when i finaly react 2 e msg tone..there's oready 4 msg in my hp!! thot i c wrongly..haha..those msg were frm beina, yinru, xinyi n jessica..dunno y i cant react 2 e msg on time..argh..tink i abit blur liao..wanted 2 continue slpin but afraid they stil need ask mi things..so wk up n cook udon eat~ received his msg again when cookin~ hoho~

thanks alot beina!!!!!!!!!

oh yeah!!! my blog finaly gt e melody i wan le!! iz "tears" by x-japan~~ my blog gt tiz nice song cos beina helped mi put de!! i gaf her my blog acc juz nw so she can help mi edit..n soon she sae ok liao~ wahah!! so happi!! but hw cum i did e same thing dun haf melody 1?? den she sae maeb need wait awhile...haha!! tink i too xcited 2 wait 4 e melody 2 cum out? keke..thanks alot beina!!~reali luv tiz song~ cos its oso in e movie "windstruck"!~~ 1st time hear tt song on radio oready feel lyk cryin..haha! den found tiz song frm e website shown in beina's blog...oso heard other nice songs in tt website...luv "endless rain" by x-japan too..haha! maeb wil change my blog's melody once a while~ cos there r too mani nice songs i luv!!!!!!!!

wanrong~

mi n wanrong~ taken at ps durin dec holi~~ hehe..nv tk pic w her alone b4 thou we r best frens since pri....

STOP DREAMIN LAH!!!

2dae iz e sch reopen 4 alot ppl~ on e wae 2 e mrt..i saw mr koh!!~~ my sec eng teacher~~ haha!! so happi n xcited 2 c him lor~~ saed halo 2 him n he smiled n sae hi 2 mi too~ but he looks tired..maeb cos iz 1st dae? hehe...

hai....so sian nw!!!!!!!!!!! arghhh.......juz finish re-paintin my toe nails black..wanted 2 paint my fingernails too...but scared wil tk v.long 2 dry..so didnt...tml start sch at 11..cos e tutor tkin mc..so we dun haf 2 go 4 his lesson..which iz frm 9-11...den i decided 2 pon e lec frm 11-12...so tml goin sch at 1..cos 12-1 iz break...hai..sian..reali dunno wats e goal of my life man.....feelin so down nw...juz nw look at my legs...scratches n blue-black...looks scary n juz nw my jie even tk down my legs' injuries..looks as if i'm abused!!!! sad!! juz hope there wun b scars...argh!! wanted 2 put music in my blog...........but y cannt de!!!!?? reali feel sick n down n sad n sian!!!!!!!!! HAAAIIIIIIIIII.....sudd feel lyk cryin.......wats happenin 2 mi......wat m i tinkin!!!! him?? dunno if i lyk him nt leh..hai..feel tt i'm wastin his time....?? maeb i tinkin too much again..guess he oready gif up le bah...so i shud stp tinkin le!! but i guess i'll accept him if he wan mi b his gf?? i reali dunno...cos he onli sae he lyks mi..nv ask mi b his gf wat...haha!! STOP DREAMIN LAH!! I MUZ WK UP!!!

elise's bdae dae~~

nt much thing 2 blog..juz tt yest bought a long sleeve t frm fox~~ there's a "32" in front of e dark blue t...den 2dae bought a black pants frm baleno~~ hoho!! soo auntie de!!! wahhaah!!! duno y i wan buy oso...maeb cos cant find e 1 i saw last time...these 3 daes bought 2 clothes n 1 pants...wah.....sudd spend so much...wat happen 2 mi?!! but actuali q.ok...cos e baleno pants 50% off mah..sumore 2dae last dae...den e fox t 20% off....haha!! so quickly buy more clothes~~ if nt i go poly lyk wearin uniform...ahaah!! owaes e same......well...hope these change of clothes wil b gd~~ sudd lyk 2 buy long sleeve clothes...hehe..dunno y~ maeb cos of e weather?? actuali lyk long sleeve shirt..juz tt i didnt buy..cos of e hot weather in s'pore...but nw weather more coolin..so can wear often~ these few daes often go shoppin..dunno y oso...hai~~

new yr eve tt dae fell down..soo silly..haha!! b4 i fell oready gt 1 blue black on e leg...haven even recover lor~ den nw..another 2 scratches on both legs!! muahah!! so farni..when i wear shorts yest n 2dae..can c those blue black n scratches...looks as if i'm abused...so farni!!!~~~ wanted 2 buy elise's present 2dae (2dae iz elise's bdae lah..abit late 2 buy nw)...but didnt noe wat 2 buy...so stil haven buy...sad...muz buy her a bdae present!! MUZ BUY!!! didnt go celebrate w her 2dae...hope she dun mind~ hApPi BdAe LiZ~!!

happi new yr....

went sch in e mornin n presented my IDEA proj..used few hrs 2 do e proj!! argh..dun sae le..aniwae went 2 help out at a place(4gt e name of place le..) w xinyi n peiru...its bout packin things which were donated 2 gif 2 countries affected by e tsunami...its near expo..thot we'll b busy helpin but in e end..didnt reali do much..so we left...went 2 metro warehse sales at expo n pei xinyi buy things..den we tk train 2gether 2 douby ghaut..xinyi went 2 serangn while peiru n i went ps shop~

shopped ard in ps b4 buyin mcflurry 2 eat while walkin 2 somerset..so tired man~ i was oready q.slpy when meetin peiru n xinyi at noon...den when peiru n i reached a traffic light..i oready started crossin e road when peiru sudd grab mi n sae there's a car cumin...den i stun a while cos i saw e traffic light showin green man! n peiru iz tellin mi nt 2 cross cos gt car cumin?? thot i c wrongly lor..but actuali iz she didnt noe or didnt c tt e traffic light iz showin e green man~~ omg!! xia si wo le lor!! thot e car reali cumin!! den we were luffin lyk mad women frm 1 traffic light 2 another..

went 2 OG where i bought a black shirt w e sleeve half long...i didnt brought enuff $$ so peiru lent mi $$..muz reali thanks her!!~~ omg!! i 4gt!! shud nt owe ppl $$ b4 new yr!! haf 2 return $$ b4 new yr~~ ohh no...nvm..walk til 8+ den go eat...continued 2 walk ard on e streets after dinner..den its nearer n nearer 12am!~~ we were tinkin whether 2 countdown at orchard n feel e atmosphere..so we walked up n down e escalator..walkin out n in of e orchard mrt..den we decide 2 sit down on e stairs n chat...sudd xinyi called n told us my hse nearby gt firework!! so we rushed 2 srgn 4 e firework when its oready 11.15pm...i even tripped n fell on e escalator at srgn mrt statn..omg..its so painful n embarrassin man!!!!! we were luffin lyk mad even thou i feel tt my bones r breakin..sooo painful!! nw abit swollen le....soon wil b blue-black...n tml sure walk w painfulness...haha~~

aniwae we were on time 2 reach e community centre near my hse..even manage 2 find xinyi at e sales of coupon when there's alot ppl there celebratin!! we all even countdown 2gether!! tiz iz e 1st time i was outside countdownin w my frens!! omg...was sooo xcited n happi~~~ but stil feel e pain in my bones..haha! xinyi n her schmates(cos they were there 4 duty i guess) started 2 spray foam when its 12am..cant even c e firework clearly..so sad~~ but reali enjoyed countdownin w them!!!!~~~ was q.disappointed tt beina didnt join us...sad sia~ feel bad leavin her at hm...well..hope nxt time we'll countdown 2gether!!!!!!~~~ hai..so tired n hungry nw...gona grab sum food eat n go slp..dun care whether fat nt liao..*hungry n tired*